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2008-06-15T19:17:00.002+08:00

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
but do u know how to improve chemistry?

jingxian says:
wondering about ur _____

jingxian says:
lol

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
LOL

jingxian says:
it can be cultivated

jingxian says:
but after some time

jingxian says:
if dont have, means dont have

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
okies

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
hehe

jingxian says:
chemistry=flow

jingxian says:
yah

jingxian says:
XD

jingxian says:
im scared

jingxian says:
help me saw...

jingxian says:
ok
jingxian says:
but dun tell anyone..

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
yea =)

jingxian says:
HAHA

jingxian says:
;o

jingxian says:
potato wants to patch back

jingxian says:
haha

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
LOL

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
sure?

jingxian says:
yea

jingxian says:
haha

jingxian says:
told me ystd

jingxian says:
but im like

jingxian says:
no ...

jingxian says:
haha

jingxian says:
pumpkin handsome or not?

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
potato vs pumpkin

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
onion has lost the battle

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
yar

jingxian says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAH

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
he's handsome in a fierce way

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
hehe

jingxian says:
AHAHH

jingxian says:
serious?

jingxian says:
wow!!

jingxian says:
Onion has lost the battle!!!

jingxian says:
hahaha

jingxian says:
thats so funny!

jingxian says:
haha

jingxian says:
what u mean fierce way

jingxian says:
potato handsomer or pumpkin handsomer

"Ed Angels": My Alice In Wonderland. (: says:
Pumpkin

jingxian says:
REALLY

jingxian says:
i thot usay potato very handsome

I Dare You To Read

2008-06-15T14:47:00.003+08:00

Hi, i'm back... Well, some thought i'm emo so i didn't went online, some thought i didn't cared about my blog anymore, some thought i got hitched while others thought i got ditched... Well, none of the above is true, its just that my internet's down soo i couldn't really blog over the last 2 weeks or so...

But i tell u, the last 2 weeks of my holiday is FUN! From going to the Toy Museum with the W459's to going to the youth camp last week... Its been awesome!

So get ready because i believe this post will take you one hour to read (if you're gonna read it like an O Level Eng Comprehension) & 15 minutes to read (if you're gonna read it like a newspaper):

Here's my agenda for my blog today:

1) My past weeks of adventures

2) My birthday party information

3) Goalsetting & Evaluation

My Past Weeks of Adventures:

Monday 9 June:

Its the first day of Camp X... Played lots of games... I especially love 'Catch Me If You Can' because i've learnt how to fully locked my leg... Lol... Was doing the swing thing & i realise teamwork & unity is very important... Every station has an important meaning to it if you understand what i'm saying... That is the highlight of my day in my opinion because its cool! I love my house, which is Warriors cuz its RED!

Ice breaker game was fun too, i managed to stay on till like the last 3rd round... Rafting was cool, we learnt how to build a raft... It ain't easy...

Basically, today i've seen many of my friends as well as myself stepping out of our comfort zone & trying to participate in things we may not be very good at... But i believe with members & friends supporting & encouraging each other, we will all end the race well...

Then session at Riverwalk was awesome! Presence of God was so tangible! I really really wanna run down to the altar for Pastor to lay hands but too bad, its for the Connect Group Leaders but nonetheless, its a power-packed session... Thank You Pastor!

Tuesday 10 June:

Second day of Camp X, male & femal will separated into different rooms as there's different message for each gender... Message was about Daniel in the bible... I love the way he is... In the end, i responded & went to the front... Gyrus? (How do u spell his name?) He just laid hands on me... The feeling was awesome... Electricity flowing through your body, after that, my whole body was still trembling... Anyway, its my first time being laid hands cuz alot of times, Emerge & stuff, its all on CG leaders & stuff... So i really wish more things like this to come... What an encounter with God!

Then played The Apprentice... Well, to be honest i didn't really enjoyed that game... Haha, & night was Haute Couture... The praise was awesome, that's all i can say... Alive, in You we're so alive! After that proceed back to the campsite, nothing much happpen except some ghost story session then went to sleep...

Wednesday 11 June:

It was raining heavily & all of us were so tired... Session 2 was awesome too... 2nd worship song i cried like crazy, cuz the presence was not tangible, its SUPER EXTRAORDINARILY HYPER UNIMAGINABLY TANGIBLE!

Actually nothing much to say la, overall this camp, i've made new friendships as well as strengthen some friendship i already have... For example, i get to know Joel & Winston better & of cuz the friends froom other cell group in House Warriors... On the other hand, people like Kim are some of my already known friends for years, but i believe this camp will take our friendship to another level... Most importantly, i'm spiritually charged up after the camp & i wanna doo more great things for God... I really reallly had an enncounter with Him & revelations after revelations, its so amazing!

& anyone has the song for the Camp X videoo they show? Please send to me! Haha... Its a song about friends & its nicer than 'That's what friends are for.'

& also, Praise the Lord, as you guys know, i alight at Outram so i was at Boon Lay on the train home... God bless me, i slept till Kembangan & what's more amazing is that its on the West bound train which is till Outram, which also mean that from Boon Lay, i slept till Pasir Ris & the train went back to Kembangan before i woke up... Praise the Lord!

Thursday 12 June:

Met Joel & the SP Gusto peeps foor training at Sentosa... It was cool... Our team lost the first second round & the rest of the rounds the other team lost... I thought it was a rather great bonding session for Gusto... At the end of the day, Cheerleading is about teamwork & unity... I hope Gusto will be even moore united than what we are today, sharing the same vision & dreams...

Left early, took a cab to Joel house cuz he wet his pants... So was playing his electric guitar, was so happpy when his dad says my strumming is good... Haha... Took another cab down to Yishun cuz we're late... Went to visit JunJie with Joel & Kim... Well, he was so much better, he can walk without the walking stick le... I really hope he'll get well soon & get back to church this coming week... Blood clot, go in the name of Jesus! I might visit him again this week or maybe the next when i'm free... & i really know the feeling of staying at home alll day, its really boring! If i'm in his shoes, i guess i might end up having depression! Stay strong bro!

After that, Joel went off for his practice, so left me & Kim... Went to eat Swensen's & i tell you, thank God for protection... I nearly 'died' from opening a bottle of Chilli Sauce... I was trying to use all my might & strength to hit the stubborn sauce out to my plate, so i really did use all my might & it flew, the sauce flew to the next table, just a few Centimetres more, it will hit the man's leg the table beside us... So really ar, i can't imagine the consequences when it hits his leg... Lol, anyway Swensen's Fish & Chips ain't that nice to eat nowadays... Anyway, its a good fellowship... In order to fulfil my dream, I guess you're right, i had to give up that something i love doing most...

& yar, i ended up in Kembangan, YES AGAIN! (Why am i so fated with this MRT station) after a long bus ride to 'kill' time & took a train home...

Friday 13 June:

Nothing much happen this day... Went down to my clubhouse to discuss about camp... In the end, camp is postponed... Then went down to Vivo City to pass something to Kim then rushed down all the way to Marina Square to meet XinYing, Jasmin & Stanley... Its a soooooooooooo last minute thing lor... Haha... But the concert was cool! Oh yar, Joel came down t joined us too after Marina Sqaure... Sometimes i wonder, why does schools always hold their band performances in Victoria Concert Hall? Haha...

After that, went to Lau Pa Sat to have supper...Carrot Cake, Fried Oyster, Satays & Fried Kway Teow... Oh man, sinful pleasures! Thank God for the lime juice!

Saturday 14 June:

Man, i'm so tired of all the typing! Please continue to read, it takes great effort for me to blog so much...

Father Day's service was awesome! Drama is funny! I realised being a father is not that easy... As a father, you gotta lead, take responsibilty & protect your family & etc etc... Three cheers to all Dads in the world!

Had a great fellowship with cell group after service then me & JunXiong took a cab home... I'm so in love with the Attic! There's this balcony in the attic & last night was awesome, i took out my guitar, played a few worship song in the serene & tranquil night with the bright cold silver moon shining brightly above me... The feeling is so awesome... Who cares about passer-by looking, its all about me & heaven... What a way to connect with the one above! Played songs like Heart After You, Sanctuary, Take All Of Me, Refuge, I Want To Sing Until I'm Lost In Your Love... The presence of God came flowing down amazingly!

Earlier this day, people ask me whether do i feel the presence of God stronger in service or quiet time? I believe this question is redundant, as long as i can feel the presence of God, who cares if its service or quiet time, i'm already content... Different people have different talents, as well as different sensitivity... So maybe i guess i feel the presence of God more during worship than quiet time & stuff...

& i promise i will propose to the girl i love there one day in the future! Well, i'll upload the pictures soon. =)

My 19th Birthday:

As far as i'm concern, i've finalised the date for my birthday party at my house! So sad lor, chalet mostly booked le except some haunted ones... Haha... Its on 18th June!

Wait,, before you continue to read on, the party is only for SP Gusto peeps! Be it seniors or juniors! You guys are all invited & yes, including the alumni's like Candice, Kaytee if you guys are free...

Don't worry, my CG members & ex CG members, i will organise another session for you guys at my house, the date is not confirmed yet, most likely on the 19th of June or 23rd of June, which is my actual day... I will give you guys more information... However, i might need some of you to help me out on Wednesday so i'll contact some of you guys again...

Yay! I'm 19 soon!

& yar, presents or not, please, no soft toys... Cuz my bed is filled with soft toys already... & my mom won't scream at me if more of these are to come! Unless you're my giirlfriend or gay friend, i'll accept the soft toy... Okay, i'm not gay alrighty?

Here are some of my Top 10 wishlists (Hope my mom + dad sees this):

1) Electric Guitar
2) Acoustic Guitar
3) Banana Republic Berms
4) New Urban Male Bag (Yes, Again! Or Something Metrosexually Inspired)
5) Christian Audigier's Che Gueverra Inspired T-shirt
6) Ted Baker Blazer
7) Quality Time
8) Better Relationship With People
9) Cell Group Guitarist By 2008 (Amen!)
10) A girlfriend? (Haha, nah not ready & just kidding)

But seriously, its the thought that counts, even a piece of tissue paper mean more if its from the bottom of your heart than a Ed Hardy with no heart in it... Its just a wishlist, it may not be what i really need in your pinion... In any case, i still love everyone!

Somethings tempting me to put Forever Friends Teddy Bear in my wishlist! Lol...

Goalsetting & Evaluation:

Remember i said i wanna be a CG guitarist since the start of the year? Actually looking back, i feel i'm on the right track so far! Everyday i've been practising & praying that i can move in the spirit... I think its awesome! I don't care, i must be a cell group guitarist by the end of 2008... I even hope one day i can play in front of a big day event like Emerge, Festival of Praise & etc... Nothing is impossible, i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

Physically, i think i'm on the right track... JJust a little more discipline... Still remember the i-Fit Revolution? But i think my greatest enemy is myself... So i guess i'll have to push myself to the limit!

Emotionally, i guess i'm still not there yet... Though improved a little, but still not there yet... I think i need someone to be a listening ear, someone that i can understand & this person can also understands me, someone whom i can share my problems, someone where i can cry on the person's shoulder, someone where i can share my joy with... At times when i'm lonely, i do get lots of emotional attacks... No, don't get me wrong, i don't think its about getting attached... I think its more of a friend, a soul mate, who i can communicate with... Just someone close lor...

So June's already gonna end & its already 6 months... Like what my pastor says, its half-time... But half-time scores ain't important if you compare it to the full-time score... Mayybe right now, i may be a goal down but i will try to score another one the next 6 monhts, if not i'll force it to extra time then penalty shoot-outs...

So to end off my post, here are my top 10 things that gives me a memorable January to June 2008 (in no order of importance):

1) Camp X
2) Multiplication of W362 & W469
3) Cheerobics '08
4) My Attachment @ OCBC
5) Terrible Physical Trainings
6) Night Walk At Changi Hospital During Charis' Birthday Chalet
7) Countdown 2008
8) Fellowship With Magnum Force At Thai Express After Rehearsal Last Saturday
9) Practiising Guitar Almost Everyday
10) February 15 =)

Not interesting right? Lol...

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Thanks Candice For Helping Me To Fix The Problem In My Blog Soon."

Its Now On LiveJournal

2008-05-30T10:59:00.003+08:00

FOR THOSE THAT ARE STILL VISITING MY AgapEd-Angels.Blogspot.Com, THIS POST GOES OUT TO YOU...

DON'T YOU REALISE MY FONT IS TOO SMALL? CUZ I MADE A SILLY MISTAKE WHEN I WAS EDITING MY TEMPLATE, I GUESS I DELETED SOME THINGS AWAY, THAT'S WHY MY FONT IS NOW SO SMALL... ITS SO IRRITATING CUZ NUMBER ONE, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET IT FIX & NNUMBER 2 I'M BLOGGING IN CAPITAL LETTERS FOR THE SAKE OF SOME 10,000 DEGREE FRIENDS I HAVE.

SO THIS POST GOES OUT TO YOU TELLING YOU THAT I'VE ANOTHER BLOG... ITS AT LIVEJOURNAL... ADDRESS: EDANGELS.LIVEJOURNAL.COM

OR YOU GO CLICK ON MY LINK DOWN THERE, YOU CAN FIND IT...

I'VE BEEN BLOGGING BLOGGING & BLOGGING EVERYDAY AT LIVEJOURNAL BUT NOTHING FEELS LIKE BEING IN BLOGSPOT... I HOPE SOME ONE CAN HELP ME FIX THIS PROBLEM... MEANWHILE CATCH ME BLOGGING AT LIVEJOURNAL...

AGAPE,
ED ANGELS XOXO

Cry On My Shoulder - Overflow

Life Stories

2008-05-21T23:39:00.003+08:00

Life is precious! Let's keep praying till he's fine!

Get well soon bro, may God's divine healing be with you! =)

We'll pray till you regain consciousness.

Your Friend,
Ed Angels

"What Exactly Happen To My Font Size In My Blog? OMG!"

David A. & Man Utd To Win American Idol & Champions League respectiively.

Metro > Gay

2008-05-21T00:54:00.005+08:00

Valentine

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time...
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
'Cause all I need is you, my Valentine
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

This is one of the best love songs i've ever heard... Introduced by my secondary 3 classmate i still remember... Still remember on my US Vacation in 2004, there wasn't Mp3 yet, so there was this song that keeps playing on repeat on my Mini Disc Player... The environment there, the roads there was so different from Singapore... Listening to this song & cruising down the highway enjoying the beautiful nature sights, the feeling is awwwwwwwww, indescribable...

Anyway, its a song you can listen to when you're down, when you're in love, when you're heart-broken, when you're disappointed, when you're sick or when you need encouragement...

& in case you don't know, my blog's name no longer '65 SorrowField Blvd'... It is now called 'BitterSweet Rehab-sody' pronounced as 'Rhapsody'... Rhapsody means exuberance, enthusiasm... & bittersweet, this word, i not need explain... It basically means enthusiastic in sharing what's going through in my life, be it sweet or bitter... Cool huh?

American Idol Finals, Champions League, Shopping, Great Singapore Sale, Euro '08, Camp X, MY BIRTHDAY!!! Its all coming soon, STAY TUNED...

They call it Sweet 17,
I'll call it Metrosexual 19! =)

I ❤ CamWhore-ing...

Closest Thing To A Girl's Blog,
Ed Angels

"When Things Are Looking Good, Everything Becomes Fine, You Can't Pull Me Down, For I've Ask For Divine Protection From Heaven."

4:35 Pm

2008-05-20T00:20:00.006+08:00

Today wasn't that great! I woke up at 4:35pm & yar, i'm late... Did my projects, surveys & stuff then rushed down to Mind's cafe, played a few rounds of Taboo & UglyUglyUgly with the Gusto peeps... UgluUglyUgly was a brawl, omg! Hanged around there for 1 hour only & rushed down to meet Kim, Kelly & Joel...

Had Subway for dinner then hang around at Ngee Ann City... Nothing much happen though... Next week after service let's go Pepper Lunch, there's this awesome promotion i saw...

At least i made someone smiled today by dropping all the comics book in Kinokuniya...

Thanks for the fellowship guys!

& i realised i'm such an ass... I just broke someone's trust a few days ago... I'm just feeling sad, ashamed & guilty... I know its not easy to build back that trust... If i'm in your shoes, i might not even go out with you anymore... But i just hope things can get better & i'm feeling really bad & awful over the past few days... What hurts me most is when you called me & ask why did i do that to you becuz you don't deserve to be treated like this... There's nothing much i can say except the word 'Sorry' but there's many things i need to do in order not to repeat such mistake again... Sorry! I hope you will see the difference in me soon...

& i've lost my voice, please pray for me! I hope that when my voice returns, i can sing even more beautifully than before... So for now, guitar practice is just pure strumming & no singing!

Your Friend,
Ed Angels

The Big 'M'

2008-05-19T00:14:00.006+08:00

Today was multiplication cell... I really got lots of thoughts to blog & say about but not today cuz i'm tired... So i'll just upload some pictures i took today...

JunXiong (The Best Connect Group Leader):

Potential Flyer?

James & Vernon:

Germaine, My CG Member Of 1 Month:

Vernon:

He Broke This Metal Chair, OMG! STRONG!!!

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Terry Miles:

Gay-ing At H.K. Cafe (Tilt Your Head A Little):

Basically, that's all the pictures i have with me...

Today's cell group meeting was the BEST yet to come! Omg, i had an encounter with God... Just kept weeping during worship, non-stop! Ministering time was awesome... The message from God is so clear-cut... I'm lovin every single moment in His presence... Its feels good, like your burdens & stuff, you could feel them all flowing out... Its like someone comforting you, giving you strength when you're down... You feel weak, just wanna surrender your all! Oh My!

Anyway, cell group has multiplied... & my new cell group is W469! From W220 to 362 to 469! Weeeeee! & i'm glad the 3 surviving W220 in W362 are still in W469! So unexpected! So yea, i basically know that my cell group members will be: Terry, Kim, YuPing, Edwin, Alcia, Eugene, Lloyd, Daniel, Joel, James, Winston, Kelly & who else? There should be a few more right? Haha...

& i'm glad multiplication cell is over... I've lots of weird dreams & stuff about it! But nonetheless, the truth has set me free! & now, i'm free!

Agape,
Ed Angels

Walking Down Memory Lane

2008-05-17T00:38:00.004+08:00

These are some journeys of my life... Starting from today till a few months back... Cuz i just uploaded all the pictures on my phone to my com so i got a little motivated to post all the nice pictures here...

May 16:

Kim

Joel

Kim, Kelly & Joel

Kim, Kelly, Yuzhen, Joel

W362

Jeremy

At Plaza Sing with Charis & friends:

Nothing To Do In SP's Restroom:

WeiPin At Train Towards Downtownn East:

My Workstation During Attachment:

Gap + Banana Republic:

Cheerobics '08:

Raymond & Adrian

ZhiHao

ZhiHao, JX & Genevieve

Cheerobics '08 With Yuzhen, Kim, Joel & Mom

My Final Year Project Members:

My Internship Buddies:

Reaching Out To ___________:

THIS IS ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS:

Well, there's more pictures to be uploaded & shared... Beautiful memories, ain't it?

Agape,
Ed Angels

Lovely Cliques, Insecure Loser

2008-05-15T10:42:00.006+08:00

Lol. your insecurity and rotten attitude will always be your downfall...

Wha, its been a long time since i last blogged! Yes, its gonna be alright!

Tomorrow there's this mask party at Vivo City coming up, & sunday is Multiplication cell group & BBQ after that...

I know something for sure, that i won't be in the same cell group as one of the closest brother i have in the cell group... A brother that's always offer a listening ear, a brother that i can click with & the list goes on... Yea, quite disappointed... How i know? I study kinesics k! I can tell from people's hand movement, the way the speak & so on... This aspect, i'm quite good in discerning... Sensitive to a person's feeling... Yea, i suck at IQ but EQ is so much important in life... So what if you're smart but suck in relating to people's feeling? That is why at times from a message itself i can feel whether is it a positive or negative one...

OMG, how did i link multiplication to EQ! Lol, that's why it takes lots of understanding & same channel flow to understand what i'm blogging... If not, its as if reading through a book without understanding its meaning behind it...

So yea, back to the topic, you guys may get a shock if i name him! We wasn't suppose to be this close, but something happened that brought us closer (YEA, IT FEELS KINDA GAY NOW, I THINK I SHOULD STOP)... But yea, the test of friendship begins...

I'm missing fellowship... Its been a long time i hit the streets... Its been a long time i stepped in a theatre... Its been a long time i last ate a decent meal at a fine dining restaurant, its been awhile since i pissed someone off, its been awhile i last made someone emo... (LOL, i'm getting out of point)

Guitar has been pretty cool so far... & i know how to play & sing in Jap... Lol, Yui's I Remember You... The chords are kinda easy, its just learning to sing fluently in Japanese... Haha, so cool! 16 beat was cool too, King of Majesty, yea yea yea!

Here's one very beautiful & serene song you can listen to when cruising on a peaceful road, sea or river!

You Belong To Me by Jason Wade

See The Pyramids
Along the Nile
Watch the sun rise
On a tropic isle
Just remember darling
All the while
You belong to me...

See the market place
In old Algiers
Send me photographs
And souvenirs
Just remember
'Til your dream appears
You belong to me....

I'll be so alone
Without you
Maybe
You'll be lonesome, too
Maybe
You'll be lonesome too
And blue

Fly the ocean
In a silver plane
See the jungle
When its wet with rains
Just remember
Till you're home again
Or until I come home to you
You belong to me...

Lastly, it is impossible to please everyone... There's people that likes you, there are also some tbat dislikes you, jealous of you of what you have & wants to pull you down... But most importantly, its all about pleasing the one above... But what good you do now will determine your place in heaven... For example, the things you said, are they pleasing or hurting to the ears of your friends around you?

Guilty? Haha, if i'm genuinely wrong, why should i feel guilty? Unless i deliberately caused it... Ain't no guilty pleasures for you!

Oh yea, i also sensed that some lame things are gonna happen... For example, there's people like gonna tag in my tagboard about how sucky i am or going to Viwawa to vote all my Wawa one star... Haha, just sense so... Teehehe!

Learning to define what's the past and present tense!

GYM GYM GYM!

How random can my post be? It does make sense if you piece them up...

Agape Xoxo,
Ed Angels

Memory Lane

2008-05-12T11:44:00.003+08:00

I just hope things can be like the past again...

Looking back at memory lane... Its such an adventure...

I'd cherish every single moment from now on... The laughter, the joy, the sorrow, the tears, everything makes it so amazing... & i'd definitely cherish the past...

When i wake up one day, its time to move along, its time to smile again...

Who Ed Angels, Who? Shut Up & Smile!

Agape,
Ed Angels

"If Friendship Feels Like A Stab In The Heart, Love Feels Like Being Crucified."

Room 666

2008-05-11T00:06:00.006+08:00

If i'm hurt day after day till one day it doesn't hurt anymore, my body's just got immune to it, its bad! Afterall i'm still a human, human must have feelings when you're happy or down... Its really bad if one day i'm immune to it! I'll be heartless trust me... I still wanna be a human so God, please stop this torment...

I know You're putting me through lots of emotional trials... (& sorry to Ronald, if you're reading my this entry, yes i'm speaking in parables AGAIN! Haha...)

As long as you're happy, i'm happy... All the best!

Sometimes, i rather be emotionless than filled with emotions... Just like kids you see at the playground, they're worry-free... They find fulfillment in the little things...

Week after week, i'm running a race... A race to see which breaks down first... Will i be physically break down or mentally break down... Its either i'm too tired & fainted or i can't take the pressure & fall into depression... The race is gonna end soon... Its a race between the physical vs the mental me...

Anyway, yea, fellowship tomorrow! The joy in my life is Gusto! Haha... Lifelong friends we may be! & yea, most likely i'll be taking part in this year NDP!

& to you: I seriously don't know what exactly happpen... Its fine if you wanna shut up... I'm okay... At least i tried my best! If you won't talk, i can't justify myself...

Okays, today was a busy day! Morning went to meet Amelia, WenYing & Willie to do our Biz Development project... Yeah, i think we're on the right track... Everyone in the group is a contributor... & i think i'm adapting well in the group... Cuz sometimes as the only guy & 5 girls in the group, you felt kinda left out... But i think i'm blending in well... Sad to say, its my first time stepping into National Library... Lol... Okays, you guys didn't know about that right!

Then proceed to church, met Charis on the train, lol... Wha, service was emotions filled... I cried la... The drama was touchy & most of us can relate to it! Especially the part where a few of the members came up to thank their mom for what they've done... I'm holding back my tears la... Cannot take it! Lol... No no, to make it clear, its not the presence of God, its just touching lor... Though the presence of God is more shiok!

Took a cab down to Raffles City... Wha, $27! Can bless someone... Then i was early, went to walk about... & i'm so pink today... Then went to Grand Plaza Park Hotel... The ambience in that hotel is nice... The food is even nicer... Had buffet... Stomach nearly exploded... I'm not a great eater, you see, when i'm in Sakae Sushi, 5 plates makes me full...

Lastly, thank God i can barre chord... Everything i do, i wanna do it for you! The songs i've played is all Yours!

Cut Me, Serenade Me,
Ed Angels

"Without God, Life Would Be A Whore."

SorrowField 7.5.08

2008-05-07T23:45:00.004+08:00

I Thought She Was Perfect Until:

I thought my New Urban Male bag was so perfect that i couldn't find a replacement!

UNTIL TODAY...

I walked into this Adidas boutique in Vivo City & wow, it caught my eye! The contrast is so beautiful & i can tell you, this is the only thing that caught my eyes in Adidas... You know i hate that brand the most right... But that bag is a beauty!

Definitely, its not gonna look like some black, shitty, dull colour style, it contains this metrosexual aura in it... Old school yet sporty! Lol... NOW YOU KNOW MY STYLE!

Guitar, My Hope, My Release:

After 3 hours of intense guitar strumming... I guess i'm jaded after that...

Haha, what else can i do to drown my hurts & sorrows? Guitar is the best solution! Hehe...

Still In Sorrows:

Just felt injustified... But that's how life is... Sometimes you get killed by someone behind stabbing a heart in your heart... You're dead, you don't know why & who got you killed... Maybe your friends, families know, but you're already dead... Haha...

Fellowship Please:

Can we fellowship on Sunday? Haha...

You Might Thinking I'm Speaking Tongues If You're A Country Pumpkin:

& i just realised something... Walking past Ted Baker, it just reminds me of Panic At The Disco... It just gives me the emo inspired country/indie rock style... You see those flowery shirts, but to me, in it hides some emotional feelings... No, trust me i'm not insane or overly emo these day... You just go get Panic At The Disco's latest CD & after hearing it, you walked past any Ted Baker shop... It gives you this creepy, identical feeling! Lol & OMG!

Here's a video of Panic At The Disco! Look at the video, its so country style, but its lyrics are so emo! Lol... I find those guys are nuts, being a star, i'd never think of such ridiculously country styled scenarios for my MTV... But nevertheless, i'm starting to love them for unknown reasons... Just a type of charisma in their music i guess...

Angels + Nightmare,
Ed Angels

Angels + Nightmares

2008-05-06T11:30:00.003+08:00

The Torments:

Its doesn't feels good to wake up in the morning these days... I just feels like sleeping & never wake up again... I just wanna rest till i have the mental energy to wake up...

Those nightmares have been tormenting me for a few nights already... Its so painful, so emotional, so tormenting... It feels like i'm being locked up with chains on both my hands & feets...

Regrets:

At times, i feel so discourage that i wannna give up... Forget about everything, everyone & move ahead from where i left off December 4 2005...

If there's a choice, i'd wanna go back to that date & start a new life... If time can be rewinded, how good... Then, these torments won't be happening...

Yea, i'm doing fine in everything... In terms of studies, physical & emotional life, i'm coping fine or you can even say better than the past 2 years (At least, you don't see mood swings anymore)... But its just this empty feeling, this undescribable word, this missing link that makes me feel this way... I rather cry at times, but the worst feeling is that you can't cry cuz the tears are all dried up...

School Sucks:

I don't feel like going to school anymore... Lectures are redundant... Lecturers are all pieces of shit... I don't believe in those lecturers, they are more of hypocrites than educators... Lecturers are, in my opinion, medicines for the insomnia...

I'm Missing You:

I seriously missed the times during my Internship at Raffles Place... It was so good, the people there are so nice... My mistake was coming to SP, i should instead go to a college... 2 years & its over... & its not as if my results couldn't get into a college...

But then again, if there's one thing that i can bring alog with me during my SP stint, its definitely the SP CHC friends i've known... I belive without them & cheerleading, you'd see me once a month in school...

Disappointed With You:

Do you even care about how i feel? Do you ever ask me if i'm doing fine? Do you ever think of me in the middle of the night? Can't you discern my feelings? Who can i run to physically when i'm down?

But i did all of that...

Angels + Nightmares,
Ed Angels

"Who Cares If You're Reading This. Its The Start Of Something Tormenting."

Square Root Of 3

2008-05-03T23:48:00.001+08:00

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

Agape,
Ed Angels

Dull + Sombre

2008-05-01T00:28:00.003+08:00

Watched soccer last night till 5am... Kinda feeling sorry for my beloved Barca!

They just can't score! Anyway, woke up at 3 & rushed to school to do songsheet... Omg, best, the printer is spoilt & i'm late so i just kept the faith that it will be done!

Went down to Central to meet Kim & supposedly Terry, but he overslept... So yea, feeling kinda sombre today... Had Subway for dinner! =)

Met WeiPin, Zhihao, Emil & Raymond so accompanied them to Riverwalk... After that, i'm walking aimlessly down the streets of Boat Quay... Feeling kinda sombre, tired & confused... Just kept thinking & thinking about some things, the scenery is awesome at night... Sometimes, it feels good to be alone... Walked & walked till Esplanade then went home...

Just that one word, i sensed something unpleasant's coming up... Haha, i'm not silly k... Hehe... I've nothing much left to say...

Everlasting? Haha...

Wha, its been 1 week since i last blogged... Something's amiss! =)

And Through It All,
Ed Angels

Please Listen

2008-04-24T00:23:00.003+08:00

Please Listen

When i ask you to listen to me
and you start giving me advice,
you have not done what i asked.

When i ask you to listen to me
and you begin to tell me why
I shouldn't feel that way,
you are trampling on my feelings.

When i ask you to listen to me
and you feel you have to do something
to solve my problem,
you have failed me,
strange as that may seem.

Listen! All i ask is that you listen.
Don't talk or do- just hear me.
Advice is cheap.
And i can do for myself, ii am not helpless
Maybe discouraged and faltering,
but not helpless.

When you do something for me that i can
and need to do for myself,
you contribute to my fear and inadequacy.

But when you accept as a simple fact
that i feel what i feel,
no matter how irrational,
then i can stop trying to convince you
and get about this business
of understanding what's behind
this irrational feeling.

And when that's clear, the answers are
obvious and i don't need advice.
Irrational feelings make sense when
we understand what's behind them.

Perhaps that's why prayer works, sometimes,
for some people- because God just listens
and let you work it out yourself.

So please listen, and just hear me.
And if you want to talk, wait a minute
for your turn- and i will listen to you, MaryJane.

Today was our performance again... It was so spirit-less... Maybe we are all sick of the same routine... But i feel proud donning the Gusto uniform again... I wonder how many more times do i have a chance of wearing that again...

Had a great fellowship with some of the Gusto peeps today at some Clarke Quay food centre... Hehe...

Lastly, i felt things have changed, it will not be the same anymore... Good things won't last forever, but better things will come! =)

Agape,
Ed Angels

"Your Attitude Determines Your Altitude."

So Random

2008-04-21T16:18:00.003+08:00

Oh man... Lectures are so boring... Here I am @ MLT 9 blogging... I'm so tired, I need a break, someone please save me... Spiderman, where are you? Well, you don't care about me, all you care about is MaryJane... Haha, so random... You can see how bored I am here using my iPod Touch... Hehe! =)

The Big M

2008-04-20T16:12:00.004+08:00

The word comes back again- Multiplication.

You ask me how i feel... Of cuz i will give you the politically correct answer la... Yeah, its good for the cell group cuz it means that the cell group is growing & doing well...

But my heart feels otherwise... Don't you feel hurt separated from your loved ones in the cell group... The time we've spent over the past 7 months... The friendship we've made... Yeah, you can say we still see each other in church, in combined zone meetings... But honestly, its not like the time we've spent in the same cell group anymore...

Its like you gotta make new friends again & again... Sometimes i wonder if things like these happens, i don't feel like making close friendship with the people in the cell group cuz the feeling is argh when multiplication comes... I rather make hi & bye friends then the feeling won't be that argh! Hope ya guys understand what i'm saying...

This coming multiplication, i believe as a cell group itself, we haven't done much of bringing new friends in, probably we can multiply is because of the huge numbers of newly transfered in into our cell group... I also got this burning question i wannna ask, how come did so many newly transfered in cell group members came into our cell group instead of going to different cell groups? Cuz i never seen like suddenly one fine week 7-8 people came into the cell group...

Quite an experience so far... But then again, i can't do anything... Its not even Pastor's or cell group leader's plan... Ultimately, its God's plan... What's in store He has for us... Sounds cool huh... So i shalll not think of this big M thingy anymore... All i gotta do is enjoy the last one month together as a cell group with the members & continue to Priase God...

Today's service was great! How do i put it? I understands 25% of her English so you can understand how i felt during the preaching part but during the ministering part, the presence of God is ooh-SO STRONG! All i did was keep tearing... That 'Oh Hallelujah' song is so beautiful... Actually i feel songs like these is so easy to usher in the presence of God... Its great! Can feel the Holy Spirit doing a work inside of me... At the end of the day, its about receiving the impartation & i'm glad i did, Praise God!

Ever since joining this church, i realise one thing... Adapting change is so important... I seriously suck, suck big time in adapting to changes... Right now, i'm still missing my first & the most loving cell group ever... Those memories are just like yesterday... I gotta be immune to changes... You know, i'm that sort of emotional boy... Its not easy k, from being emotional to emotional-less, heartless... That's so mean of me to use the word Heartless...

Randomly, Forbidden Kingdom is a damn nice movie... You gotta go watch! When you put a Westerner together with 2 Chinese men, there's definitely gonna be big time comedy!

XOXO,
Ed Angels

"Your Hardy's & Religion's Ain't That Priceless As My One Of Only Angels."

i Rock Revolution

2008-04-19T00:38:00.004+08:00

Everyone's teasing me about being in cheerleading especially my tutors... Lol.

Gems lesson today was rather weird... Its my first time in 3 years waiting for a teacher to come... In the end after 30 minutes, we just went back to the clubhouse played some bridge & learn some guitar skills from Zhihao...

I really wanna be a cell group guitarist... That's my vision... I've already come up with another training schedule for my guitar... Its called the i-Rock Revolution... Together with the i-Fit, it will make me invincible! (OMG, that's so superman)... Nonetheless, i've decided my future goals is all about getting real fit (#1), playing some beautiful melodies on my guitar (#2) & getting good grades for a better future (#3)... The rest can wait! Hehe... I'm a long term guy! What i have now is not takimg me anywhere... Haha!

Okays, so proceed to Bugis to meet Kim... Had NYDC's cookie monster mudpie! Lol. OMG, i so embarrassed myself my asking the man can i change the icecream INSIDE the mudpie to Mango icecream... Now i understand what's mudpie... Lol!

Then meet up with Kelly & Joel for dinner at Mos Burger... Hehe! Ketchup & Chilli produces heat! Nice one bro!

Cell group meeting at Queenstown... Nothing much, just keep praying & still as great! Had supper then went home!

Well, these few days i've been taking taxis to school... Today alone, i took 2 taxis, one to school & the other on the way home to Outram with Kim... Okays, the night one was alright cuz its already so late but next time i should wake up earlier in the morning... These 3 days after i calculated, i have spent $50 on taxi rides...

That $50 can be use to offerings, use to buy on my fave CDs, use for 5 weekends movies & USE TO BLESS SOMEONE WITH HAGEN'S CD (HAHA, YOU KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT)

Taxiaddiction,
Ed Angels

"Your Chemistry Together Is None Of My Physics Alone."

SorrowField: The Start Of A New Me

2008-04-17T23:48:00.003+08:00

Well, its been an awesome one week so far...

I just felt so free after today! I had so many breakthroughs this week. Firstly, i pass my 2.4km after so many years of not running that long distance... I clocked it using my iPod Touch... Uber cool!

& God has put me through a trial expecting me to get over it & yes i did! A very big emotional trial in case you don't know... Of cuz will get disappointed la but the main thing is stay cheerful & continue to praise God... When you're down, that's the time you have to praise Him more than what you usually did...

I've finally found the keys out of the cell i'm in with the devil whipping me everyday... Emo, go in the name of Jesus! But i'll still dress emo, haha...

Cheerleading training was challenging... I believe Damien's has the right substance to take this club to a higher level where our beloved Julian left off... Basically, i'll just learn to enjoy myself & do my best... My best includes going to gym & running at the sports complex on alternate days... If my best is not enough, i'm fine with it cuz at least i've done my best, kept my passion in cheerleading & most importantly, keep FIT!

Muscles, muscles, muscles i can build it... A whole new Ed Angels awaits you! Transformation + Revolution = New 'Ed Angels'

iFit Revolution

Monday (9-11am): 2.4Km or > Run @ Sports Complex (It can be used already) + 5 sets of 30 pumps + 60 sit ups in 2 mins

Tuesday (2-4pm): Gym @ Swimming Complex

Wednesday (1-3pm): Same routine as Monday

Thursday (1-3pm): Gym @ Swimming Complex

Friday (10-12pm): My secret training!!! Lol.

Saturday & Sunday: Will Update if there is any!

I dare you to join me! Lets get fit together... It may be painful but its fruit will definitely be sweet! iFit Revolution- Not for the faint hearted.

Love is not forever, Lust is not forever, But being Fit is forever!

XOXO,
Ed Angels

"iFit Revolution- This Is My Revolution!"

Never Had It Easy

2008-04-16T00:22:00.004+08:00

This is such a wonderful vision:

`= CeLeste =` `I Love Because You First Love Me. <3 says:
i wan to learn guitar and be like YUI!

Yar! I wish u all the best! You can de it if you believe sis! I'll be your manager when you become famous k?

There's Ayumi in the past, now there's Yui & in the future, ______!

Okies, today had a fruitful session with Zhihao, Raymond & Charis at the school gym! I'm disappointed that the sports complex is closed for renovation...

Nevertheless, suppose to have another gym session with Gen & Joshua after school but Joshua changed his mind at the entrance of the gym, sayying its so crowded inside... Lol, thank God i had a session before that...

Okays, so proceed to Vivo City for fellowship... Had Carl's Jr for dinner, damn sinful can? But i didn't finish the burger (i ain't no big eater man)... & the beefy cheese fries = PUKE!

Joshua's bad at Ice Hockey... Lol, lost twice to me... Its ok if he lost in his handicap match, but he lost against my handicap match... Anyway, it was an alright day... & Gen, OMG, your sec schools pictures & current picture is so different, must show the whole Gusto team one day k! Lol...

This is Emo material:

If you haven’t changed your mind
Then I want you by my side Tonight

I’m so tired of always having to bluff
Everytime I think about you baby, I feel so young
If I could just tell you I miss you
It’s so hard to say I’m sorry

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

Memories of our time together
this way, they don’t go away

Once I knew that the warmth between us had disappeared,
gentle tears started to spread over my chest
This is not where it ends, I’m missing you
please don’t let go of my hand

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

Agape,
Ed Angels

iFit Revolution

2008-04-15T00:19:00.002+08:00

Damn, i'm sick of being some backspot...

& i'm glad the word Backspot doesn't exist in Damien's dictionary...

I mean i did so much backspotting & now Praise the Lord, i need to learn everything again like what a base do... Its good & bad! Good in a way that it'll definitely stretch to my maximum potential (come on, i'm made to be more than a backspot)... Bad in a way that i'm actually behind many people... For example, Basket Toss, i've never tried before at all... I'm actually quite disappointed regarding this...

But i'm already telling myself that i'm not gonna enjoy training anymore... I gotta be so serious in everything... & serious does not equals enjoyment... But who cares, at the end of the day its really about achieving things...

But single person elevator is alright! I'm pretty confident of it, its just the tossing & catching of the leg part... Tumbling is total shit! Yes, shit! I'm just afraid of tumbling... That's my weakness of weaknesses... The person that invented Cartwheel is probably a retard... It makes one looks like a fool doing it... But nevertheless, anyything is possible if we believe we can do it!

My training regiment is quite tough... 2.4km together with pumping & siitups, & carrying weights on alternate days... At the end of the day, i'll just do my best for cheerleading & get my body into shape for army, i.e. be fit... Everything's looking positive right now! (:

& with the modules this semester i'm taking, i tell you, more 'A's are on the way...

From tomorrow onwards when i wake up, backspotting will just be a memory... Its a brand new adventure ahead! Screw backspotting!

Anyone interested in joining my iFit revolution, please contact me & we can go run, gym & eat bananas togethers...

Agape,
EdgaPe

"Christianity By Name."

SorrowField: Thanksgiving

2008-04-12T00:17:00.003+08:00

I felt so happy today...

I got back my attachment grading, & i scored 'A'... The 'A' was nothing when you read what my manager wrote on the comment box... Its so heartfelt that i nearly cried after readiing it... They treasure & appreciate my service to the compnay so much... This is enough to make my day... We're more than happy to have you on board our company in the future, Ed Angels...

What's more, after camwhore-ing with some of my colleagues for a final picture taken, the presented me with a Nike sling bag... I was like Oh My God non-stop... Though it ain't my style, i appreciate their thought... Its so heartwarming can? & Nike bag is not cheap... I don't even receive Nike stuff on my birthdays! Lol... So thank God for blessings!

You guys are the most awesome colleagues! Almost once every week i'm blessed with a meal by different people... I'm just simply touched...

Here are some people i wanna thank (though you guys may not read my blog):

JJ- Thanks for being the brother i can look up to... All these while when i'm lost with my work, you are always there to guide me, correct my mistake & most importantly, educate me... You are one brilliant kid (of cuz la, Hwa Chong JC one)... You're just one of the closest friend i've there...

Rozi- Your endless jokes just brightens up my darkness days... I just love the way you are... At times when i don't felt like working, your jokes just encourage me... & thanks for always teasiing me & my *girlfriend*...

Simon- You're the first person i knew in the company... Thanks for introducing me to the company & etc... You rock big time!

Jonathan & Sales/Marketing Dept- Thanks also for always briightening up my day, its been a joy sharing the workplace with you... & to the Sales/Marketing Department, thanks for always updating me with the latest entertainment gossips!

Alex- This is the guy i'll always respect for the rest of my life... He's my manager, the one that gave me 'A'... A very simple guy but your words of wisdom always gave me the extra motivation to move forward... The question you asked me today really hit my integrity... Yes, i'll always take the long way instead of the short cuts... I can't wait too meet up with you again & hear more words oof wisdom froom you again...

& hey, this is the manager that saves me from cutting away my long hair... My first few weeks was like everyone is asking me to cut my hair but he came to my defence & told them off saying style & brain are mutually exclusive... He says he rather hire one that dresses like a rockstar that has effieciency & brain than one that is the typical Raffles Place but doesn't have brains... Thanks dude!

You are gonna bring a change to Raffles Place! We'll soon see lots of Ed Angels lookalike there in the next coming years...

& lastly *YOURS TRULY* (You wouldn't want me to mention your name right?)- Thanks for being such a wonderful sister! & thanks for all the blessings you have gave me, for example those free lunch & that 95 bucks shorts... OMG! Thanks sister!

Thanks again to Alex, JJ, Rozi, Simon, FiFi that bought that Nike bag for me...

These people mentioned above are extraordinary because they gave me a reason to smile! They are now my 4th family! 1st is my own family, 2nd is Gusto & 3rd is my cell group!

Lastly, last night something inside me was telling me this... Ed, you're so silly, like someone also don't dare tell her... OMG! Who was that?

Also, today's cell group meeting was awesome... & i didn't know YuZhen signed me up for church guitar lesson... To be honest, i really really badly wanna be a cell group guitarist... Can you imagine this? Playing the most beautiful worship song during cell group in front of my beloved brother & sisters... What a honour, i've found my calling & i'm already working towards it... I've decided to commit 1 hour everyday for guitar... But then again, i'm scared of commitments... But all i need is one chance, just one chance in the future... I promise i won't disappoint... & i just realised my calling's ain't being a cell group leader (for now)...

My philosophy in learning guitar- Learning guitar not to charm girls, but charm God!

& i also realised these few months, i havent had a mood swing like in the past... I guess i'm controlling my emotions real well, i don't get upset easily... You can ask people like Charis how bad was my moodswing in the past... Or maybe i'm immune to it...

Well, this closes another short but beautiful chapter in my life... Monday will be a new chapter, a new start, a new semester, a new coach & definitely, A NEW ED ANGELS... Its the time to mould myself in a fitter boy, a skillful guitarist, a excellent student & a boy more hungry for the presence of God... & Monday will be the new me, you will & i repeat, you will see a change in me...

Agape,
Ed Angels

"GraceKelly Is Just A Friend Of Mine."

SorrowField: Bittersweet

2008-04-08T01:17:00.006+08:00

I just don't know what to blog...

Just this bittersweet feeling in my heart... It feels sweet yet bitter at times...

Flaws? Sorry, i can't find any... Its simply perfect...

Randomly, i kinda love names like 'MaryJane' and 'GraceKelly'... I find names like this very unique & nice... Its like 2 names joins together... At least for girls la, i'd name my daughters these in the future... The cheerful one as GraceKelly & the emo one as MaryJane... Lol...

Right now, the quest for 'GraceKelly' continues @ AgapEd-Angels.Blogspot.Com...

High School Never Ends,
Eddy Angels

"The Power To Entice, Mesmerized, Melt Me."

SorrowField: No Longer My Love

2008-04-06T17:34:00.004+08:00

The reason why you seldom see me blogging is Viwawa! Lol...

Anyway, nothing much to blog about... Lol... Service was great! I love his preaching... He has improved tremendously... The way he gives example in every point is so clear & precise... He gets his point straight into my head... Yes, he has done his job... Its now us, we must ask ourselves, 'Are we gonna practice what he preach?' or are we gonna listen & just forget about it... That's the main question we have to answer ourselves...

Then proceed to Plaza Sing to watch Rule #1... Quite lame... Hehe, the funny part is the guitar sounds, Joel would shout 'that' name to me & i'll keep laughing... Lol... Its basically not that kind of horror show u would be afraid when taking an elevator home alone in the night... The creeps are from the sudden loud sound & not from the pictures... Lol...

At night, played a few rounds of Bridge with some happy people at Viwawa... Haha, that's where i earned my 10 consecutive wins...

I slept till 4pm in the afternoon... Hehe... It was a sweet sweet dream! But back on earth, its so bittersweet... Lol...

Actually, one of my cell group member knew who's GraceKelly already... But i doubt he reads my blog... Ah hahaha! Even if he does, i believe he won't ___________.

Can't wait to start school... I'm sick of being so staminaless... Its time to do something & thank God, i've already came up with the objectives for this coming semester... I will do this alone, just alone... No one's helping me...

Don't you think its so sorrowful when one day you wake up, everything's just different... DIfferent in a negative way... Its not like the kind of day you're ready for changes... Its so disgusting! Sometimes, its better to play it alone cuz people just changes the way they feel like it... I know i gotta move on, in this cold & lonely place, i know i have lost my place, i promise i'll move on because i know i will experience bigger things in life... In the first place, we all knew this wouldn't work out, & thank God i or we are awaken from this sweet but empty dream...

Its not the same anymore...
It won't be the same anymore...
& it will never be the same anymore...

People always say this blog is so unpleasant at times to read... Well, that's the reason why i changed it to SorrowField... No, its not the cousin of CloverField... Lol, you rather see me emo here or emo outside when i'm with you? What a blessing, Ed Angels. Not anymore.

Stupid guitar, i'm so sick of playing it... Barre chords are so difficult... The more i play, the more sorrowful it'll be... To play the most beautiful melody in this world is my dream... It can only be a dream too far away...

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I Can Accept The Way We Are Now. =/"

SorrowField: The Prelude

2008-04-05T01:25:00.003+08:00

If i'm cruising down Highway 19 with my radio playing Hillsong's 'One Way'... 3.5 hours later, i'll stopover at a MacDonald... Went in, bought A cup of coffee & picked up a Seventeen magazine to browsing through for an hour...

Who'd i meet?

That's the story of how SorrowField begins. One doesn't need lots of IQ to think of that opening but one need lots of EQ instead...

So come with me, as i take you through my bittersweet fairytale and hopefully as time passes, more mysteries & secrets of mine will be revealed to you... You reader's main puurpose here is like a detective... Lol... & i had given lots of lead to the prelude above... It all make sense, seriously... Lol...

Her eyes told me with a smile, its all about you!

First, there was MaryJane... Now, there's GraceKelly... Stay tuned!

Viwawa is real fun! Friendster is dead. Facebook thought they had killed Friendster & Viwawa came along & killed Face-'Dumb'-book...

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Just Perfect."

Coming To A Blog Near You

2008-04-01T00:15:00.002+08:00

When life's good, everything's what you wanted & when's life's bad like this few days, you just get on on the wrong side of the bed... Sometimes i do see the positives in the negatives in such circumstances... People try to pull you down because you are doing well in life or you pose a big threat in their life... If you ain't a threat or improving in life, who gives a freaking damn about you? So the devil & some devil infested people are gonna bring you down when you're looking good...

I believe this is all just temporary... It will work out well after awhile... The devil's just trying to pull me down... Looking back, now & two years ago, i think i handled situations like these pretty well now... Thank God man!

Well, i'll not dwell on such things here annymore... I'll start my SorrowField series soon... I tell you, it will be damn puzzling & exciting... Its basically what i'm experiencing in my life right now but with lots twists & turns, tiny, hidden loopholes for all you GOSSIPERS to find out the mystery & answer about my life... Once you read it, i promise you'll come back for more to find out the answer...

Oh yea, did i mention about what i'm gonna do when school reopens... I had lots of 1 hour & 2 hours breaks in between my lesson... No way the devil's asking me to go home, i believe it will be good if i can spend these breaks at the sports complex training my stamina... My stamina seriously seriously sucks... But its gonna be different in a few months time i promise... My target is to finish 6 rounds in 10 minutes... Possible right?

Meanwhile, these are some happy people in my life!

On the way home!

Me & Bestie

Outside Shaw Cinema

Emo 4ever

Me, HuiWOON & Genevieve

May I Try Again One More Time?

The Funny Pictures:

These picture can make your day!

Agape Don't Exist In Some People,
Eddy Angels

"Talking Like An Expert Because Of Insecurities."

Haha, I'm Such A Fake One

2008-03-30T22:54:00.005+08:00

THIS CONTENT IS RATED UNSUITABLE IF YOU'RE THINKING OF A GOOD MONDAY MORNING!

I just realised i can hide my feelings damn well... You know, i don't feel good these two days, i just felt so lousy about certain issues in life... But then again, i've managed to fake it all by putting such a big freaking fake smile on my face, for example talking so excitedly to the new friends... I believe no one can feel or discern that i'm down... I'm just such a great actor, a great deceiver... But then again, i can't take this shit anymore, so i'm here blogging...

It takes real balls to continue reading below cuz i promise you it won't be something pleasant...

I realises the pains & hurts of life... When someone you don't know hurts you, you gets angry & it will be okay after awhile, just temporary compared to someone you know, someone who's actually so close to you & one day, this person just stops talking to you like before... No No No, you will not feel angry, but its a feeling worst than angry, a hidden feeling inside of you, a feeling of being betrayed, pain & anguish... Its like been locked in a cell with the devil using a cane to hit you repeatedly, reminding you of your past... I hate this feeling... That's the most **** ** thing in life...

Its like your mom got killed but the police can't find a reason to explain her death... Its like a mystery!

I dare not trust anyone already... To even tell you my biggest secret, that was my first mistake... I'm sick & tired, every weekend is becoming a burden to me... I guess i have done what i'm suppose to do, if it doesn't work out, i'll move on to a better place hopefully... In the end, God's the one who knows everything...

So Father, i'll lift up this friendship into your loving hands... I'm willing to exchange the peace of God into my heart with this friendship... I'll entrust you to fix it or break it, let Your will be done... Take away all the pain, hurt & confusion in my heart right now, fill me with your peace, fill me with more of your unconditional love... & i pray that You'll erase the bad memories i have with this person... Let me move on with my life & know better people, restore this friendship if possible... If better, teach me how love all over again for my heart doens't knows how to love anymore...

I thought all Christians are perfect at first... Hehe, but its okay... John 15:13- Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. (NIV) ... I was so down just now but flipping through the bible, i amazingly came across this verse, i believe God's telling me not to give up... & mind you, the verse isn't taking about Jesus, it doesn't have a CAPITAL H in HE & HIM, its talking about us!

If you message someone about how you felt & you receive no reply, its probably this person has no love... Even if the message is something bad, at least i know what is happening... But NONE! Haha, that's how some people are... If doing this would make you feel happier, then i'll be glad you do so...

If you asked me how i felt over this, i'd use words like disappointed & heart-breaking... Its alright, i'll be fine over a few days... & when it comes back to weekends it'll be the same again... Thinking back, its so silly... My heart & brain thinks so differently...

Get back to me if you have read this, & to innocent parties, tell me how you feel...

Walking along the beautiful beaches of Sentosa this evening, i thought to myself, the place i've seen on is so beautiful but my heart is so shattered inside of me... It feels bittersweet...

I Don't Feel Agape Anymore,
Eddy Angels

"Its Really Tempting To Use The F Words At Times To Describe My Life."

You Mean Nothing To Me Anymore

2008-03-30T01:12:00.004+08:00

After reading that, it breaks my heart, it really such an insensitive thinking...

Afterall, i've said my part... I believe in choosing the right actions in order to enjoy the good consequences...

Well, running away from burdens, its so silly!

It didn't made me feel good either... It actually spoils my day badly... Sorry, i've learnt to let go of certain things already... Someone else is more important to me now...

After tonight, i'll be fine... Drowning all my sorrows here at SorrowField, i'll be ok... I just thought how insensitive you can be, it only breaks my heart a little... I'm just disappointed over the way you see life...

& finally i understand why every parents want their child to learn Financial Management! Its such a crucial subject & thank God i've cruise through that module last year, gotten a B grade... Even pastor is emphasizing on saving money... I wonder how many people in this world have the discipline to do that... For me, i will torture myself to save & i'll see how it goes... "A dollar today is worth more than a dollar tomorrow" that's my lecturers fave sentence in my Financial Management lectures... Yeah, that subject sucks but then again, it has a meaning behind it!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"If I Could End This Tonight, I Will, Just To See You Smile Again, Carry On With Your Life ,& Making New & Better Friends."

Some Lame Shows

2008-03-26T00:12:00.004+08:00

Watched Sky of Love today (correct me if the title is wrong)... Kinda sucky to me...

I nearly teared watching Enchanted but never during this show... Maybe i'm not that kind of desperate for love kinda person or maybe someone laugh during the movie? LOL...

In short, that girl is indecisive & has low discerning skill, & the guy's just crazy in love with her & wants the best for her... This relationship between they 2 are so budget... Come on, that guy can't even afford a quarter of a carat diamond ring for the girl & she's carrying his baby??? Ridiculous!

& i believed most people cry (which is mostly made up of girls) is because that guy is handsome & then he dies tragically in that movie, showing so much unconditional love for that girl... You see, perhaps they feel that their boyfriend is not as loving, caring & handsoome as that guy in the film so they cries & for the boys that cries, its most probably seeing their girl cry & they got so freaking jealous that a 2 hours show's lead actor could stole their heart away & so they got so heart broken & cry...

On a serious note, that movie demonstrates the power of love... Love can be sweet yet destructible at times...

Well, that's my analysis. (:

The Way You Looked At Me.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"We All Live In A Broken Down World, SorrowField Is Here For Us Too Cry Out Our Sorrows."

Welcome To SorrowField

2008-03-24T00:18:00.003+08:00

Whenever i stepped onto Expo's Coffee Bean that area, the past just came to torment me... I hate it badly... I don't need a gadget like iMing to recall those tormenting days... Its just flashbacks after flashbacks of all the bad memories... I hate that place, i hate that place, i freaking hate that place. I swore i will not go back there again... Its tormenting me again... & i'm sorry for feeling so emo after going there...

Just look at how much that place can affect me emotionally... I hate it!

If you care about how i feel, you should not run away from your problems.

But Expo's drama was OWNAGE!!! The best ever produced besides the 2006's Christmas! How did they ever thought of such an intelligent plot? OMG! Its really a whole new dimension, a new milestone for the drama ministry... But actually after watching Friday's one at Jurong West, i was really really disappointed & felt so cheated... But iMing @ Expo was uber awesome! The actors can take up lots of roles there, the props are so much cooler & the plot is simply brilliant... If you disagree with me saying Jurong West is better, then you're not stepping out of your comfort zone... & thank God my friend enjoyed the drama... I cannot imagine if i bring her to Jurong West...

2 more weeks of attachment & its over...

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I Hate You For Being Melancholic."

Angels & devils

2008-03-22T23:00:00.005+08:00

I so hate snobbish, over confidence people. Haha. Especially when they fall one day, its so fuunny. Let the cold war begin!

Anyway, i brought someone to church today! It was pretty cool cuz she drives me there. So its like wha, first time take car to Expo.

Life's good when you have a car...
Life's even better when someone's chaffeuring you to places...
Life's best if the driver is a girl! Teehehe...

Yeah! I know she dooesn't read my blog so its okay. Haha, even if she do, it won't be much of a big trouble. I hope she's impacted by the service then i'll have more free rides to church every week. Wha haha. God bless my soul! (Didn't expect i'm such a cheapo huh?)

& its been a blessed day. After service went to Orchard to shop. Was blessed with an awesome dinner at Ajisen Ramen. That's not all! So we continued shopping around Ngee Ann City, Paragon area. Went into Banana Republic (that's a new boutique store in Singapore) at Paragon. & i was blessed with a $99 shorts. Well, its not really worth the money but its the brand lor. You know the feeling when someone asks you to try that & then says i'll pay that for you. Even my dad doesn't believe its so true! But well, that's the amazing part of life. But wow, she spends money like water...

Well, you'll always be the sister i can always look up to. Thank You for everything!

That's all for today! May there be Gusto fellowship tomorrow! Come on Kazuya, make that wish of mine come true! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

I'll Be Waiting

2008-03-22T00:18:00.003+08:00

Everyone has a love song... This is mine... This is dedicated to you... What's yours?

He broke your heart
He took your soul
You're hurt inside
Cuz there's a hole
You need some time
To be alone
Then you will find
What you've always known

I've seen you cry
Into the night
I feel your pain
Can I make it right?
I realize
There's no end in sight
Yet still I wait
For you to see the light

I'm the one who really love you, baby
I've been knockin' at your door

And as long as I'm living
I'll be waitin'
As long as I'm breathing
I'll be there
Whenever you call me
I'll be waitin'
Whenever you need me
I'll be there

You are the only one I've ever known
That makes me feel this way, couldn't on my own
I wanna be with you until we're old
You've got the love you need right in front of you, please come home
I'm the one who really loves ya, baby
I can't take it anymore

Sweet & Nice right the lyrics? Weeeee. Sexy!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Agape (:

2008-03-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

The joy in your eyes when you sees me...

You're the one that i want!

The electricity, your initiative towards me...

The way you helped me wash *** ***** off my ******* is so sweet!

Went to Sentosa to suntan today. It was rather cool because many people went. I was expecting just 3 or 4 only. Haha. This group of friends i went out with are most probably the best you can find in the world. Without them, life is like eating uncooked vegetables everyday. To be honest though the fact hurts, these group of people are even closer than my cell group members. Lifelong, eternal friends! They are the best thing in life besides God. I'm not gonna list out the names but you know who you are! Beautiful!

We should have more gatherings like this. If better, full-time fellowshippers. Imagine having a cell group called SP220 or SP1. So cool! With that, i believe it'll give me extra to the power of 10 motivation to bring friends to experience what AGAPE LOVE is all about!

Easter service, well the drama is so predictable. Can't wait for Expo's one. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I Don't Wanna Drag My Unsaved Friends Into The Mess I'm In. Common Sense Understands That."

Sakae & Timbre

2008-03-19T01:04:00.003+08:00

Cheerobics was a blast! The most exciting thing is that i enjoyed myself thoroughly & the friendship we've made is even stronger & stronger after the competition.

Just wanna thank YingJie, YuZhen, Joel, Kim & Terry Miles for coming down to support me. Lol. So cool, i didn't ask them to come. They just came. Though we did not won, we at least grab some headlines. Haha, for example look at my tagboard. Haha. Any news is better than no news. Hehe. You guys are the most supportive people i've known. & those the messaged me, even though some message me asking me the results on the wrong day, i still wanna thank you guys for the effort.

Special extraordinary thanks to my mom for accompany me throughout the Cheerobics period. Its cool to be a Mummy's Boy once in awhile. Its seriously cool!

Well, i've never bullied or made any enemies before. Everyone knows that. Haha. Its fine! The grapes are turning sour, you can't help it! Hehe.

Anyway, celebrated Chen Cheng's birthday at Raffles Place today with WeiPin, Charis, Raymond, Clarence, Candice, Joshua & Gen. Lol. Had Sakae Sushi, played the NUMBER GAME & it was hilarious! Hehe. Then went to Timbre to chill.

I've never drank so much alcohol before in my life. Gotta go off soon, will update tomorrow when my Internet's up & not so disconnected. (:

Cockiness > Humbleness

Agape,
Ed Angels

"Its Been A Few Days."

So Random, So Lovely

2008-03-14T15:59:00.003+08:00

The Affection between me & her... So Obvious

& i've been fooling everyone since December...

I've been absent from work since Tuesday. Wow! 4 days is pretty cool!

So tell ya what i've been doing (Come on, hopes my Manager sees this):

- Tuesday, went to meet WeiPin, Gen & YiYu go Queensway print the Gusto word on our costumes. Clubhouse > Queesnway > Clubhouse > T11A

- Wednesday, met Gen & WeiPin in Bugis then to City Hall > Queesnway > Clubhouse > Clementi > T11A.

- Thursday, met WeiPin, Gen & Joshua for the enrolment. Then went to clubhouse to play a few rounds of Bridge & Monopoly. 2 DOLLARS! HAHA!

- Friday, suppose to go back to work today but after 3 days of fun (which i'm suppose to rest at home), i went back to the doctor to take another MC because last night i sat up & sleep, the flu's damn bad. Well, so rested at home & here i am, blogging. Cell group meeting later & gonna have training with my tower for awhile after my cell group later.

Well, thanks for all you people's company. Its been an awesome 3 days getting the club stuff's done & all the fun.

Now, there's only one persoon in my mind right now!

The person is CHEERLEADING!!!

Haha, i've got you guys fooled. Nothing will affect me more than Cheerleading. I don't mind if ya backstab me now, it doesn't matter cuz only Cheerleading is my soul right now. Not even the devil can distract anything away from my Chheerleading. This huge sacrifice we've all made, its gonna pay off. Thanks for everyone faithfulness in coming to trainings day after day, night after night!

For those that don't believe in Cheerleading, you are missing out on one of the most sweetest, amazing thing in life.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Though You Might Feel Forsaken Right Now, I'll Make You Feel This Way Forever."

Does Love = Riches?

2008-03-13T00:47:00.003+08:00

To Me, You Are Perfect!

Seriously no words can descriibe your character, your knowledge, your willpower, your endurance, your faithfulness, your humbleness & your sweetness.

I just feel so inferior, worthless when i'm with you. Though every second is so beautiful, i just hope it ends soon cuz i really really felt like nothing when i compare myself to you.

Where's my confidence? I'm nothing compared to your dollar signs & brains... I just feel i'll do you more harm when i'm together with you, i'll be such a bad influence... You deserve someone better, richer, smarter, spiritual and fitter than me seriously... So stop clinging near me now... And i didn't know there's someone out there there's more blessed than me (Awwww, but life is still fair)...

All i can do is stand aside and watch you find your happiness... & i'm badly mesmerised by you... Its a torture to just stand aside... Every day, every night, my heart beats for you... I can't stand this anymore... Talk to me!

& i'm sure you guys were thinking of the wrong person while reading this... I promise, its the wrong person on your mind right now, stop deceiving yourself. Think of the second choice & assume its the right answer cuz its so obvious. (:

Anyway today had a day off so went down to meet Genevieve & WeiPin at Bugis to buy *erm* tights for the flyers. Haha, i just realised WeiPin is always late but that's a good thing cuz you don't need to wait for people. No offence bro, just for entertainment. Then took a cab down to Peninsular Shopping Centre to collect the shoes. Chill at Spinelli cafe then went to meet YiYu at Queensway to collect the Costumes & off we go to school.

& it was raining heavily. Always carry an umbrella with you if not...

Agape,
Ed Angels

"Is It Possible To Love Someone Richer Than You? Yeah!"

No Sacrifices, No Victories

2008-03-11T01:08:00.001+08:00

Firstly, i wanna apologise to people (if you do realise) that's been insulted by my actions today. Well, i'm just having a mild fever & i just felt a sense of urgency today so i'm really really serious at training today, not even smiling or joking at all. Cuz i really felt the urgency.

Secondly, i felt that we are already winners, with all the sacrifices we've put into. Never in my wildest dream i can imagine myself to be so committed to this. Cheerleading have become a lifestyle of mine. Without it, its like a married couple living a thousand miles apart from each other, only seeing once in every 10 years.

Winning the Cheerobics i think its a bonus! What we're doing now is already a accomplishment. Something that's really awesome. But then again, after so much sacrifices, it'd be a pity if we don't get at least top 3 in Cheerobics.

Right now, i'm 100% confident my tower will succeed. By faith, i believe it will be so beautifully engineered by my 2 extraordinary strong bases & me & the most graceful flyer in SP Gusto! Well, i'm nothing without them. Haha. Now my fave stunt to execute is Full Liberty cuz its really beautiful if the stune succeed.

I'm just abit lack of faith in the Dance part & the last stunt. Cuz maybe not enough practice i guess.

I'm looking forward to March 16! Hope u people reading my blog will come & support my team. We're second to perform after the 'Fallen' Magnum Force. They WERE the 5 times National Champions.

I'm just afraid of the Aces & the Kent Ridge Hall team. But then again, i believe our strongest challenger is OURSELVES! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I Lust You"

Healing

2008-03-08T22:33:00.002+08:00

I don't feel good after cell group meeting today. I don't know why. I just felt so confused, so tired.

Cuz its a combined meeting, on the chartered bus to service, i was thinking lots of things. Really loads of things. I'm confused over certain thing. I'm lethargic over certain things & thank God Cheerobics is next week cuz if it another, i think my body will breakdown. Physically & emotionally i'm tired & down.

Did i really put God first in my life?

I'm just so tired & unmotivated. But i'll be fine! Though i'm physicaly tired, i'm enjoying it. I'm enjoying my preparations for Cheerobics very much. I can handle my physical lethargy but mentally i don't think so. My mind is corrupted with so many stuff right now. My emotions are mixed with pain, anguish as well as excitement & joy. Why are all these happening?

Today during praise, i just cried for no reason. Its been a long time i cried during PRAISE, not worship. Unless i'm going through a really really difficult period. I feel so weak & helpless nowadays.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Freedom

2008-03-08T00:38:00.003+08:00

Freedom to me is everything.

I'm 18.

Freedom is making the right choices.

Freedom is not treating 18 like a 8 month old.

Freedom is choosing between justice & injustice.

Freedom is sacrificing your loved ones embracing your dream.

Freedom is doing things that irritates some of your dream robbers.

Freedom is flying without limits.

Freedom is Heaven.

Freedom is Ed Angels.

What i'm gonna buy these coming months:
-TopMan Red Tee
-Ted Baker Vintage Tee
-River Island Formal Shirt
-River Island Vintage Jeans
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-Blessings my love ones with lots & lots of prezzies!

My Ultimate Dressing:
- Ted Baker's Endurance Blazer

You know how much it cost? $2000!

Who needs YSL, LV, Gucci, Bvlgari, Cartier & blah blah

when we have...

River Island, Topman, Zara, CDG, Ted Baker, Armani Exchage & Fred Perry

which looks much trend-ier, economical & hip-per than the above brands...

Flying Without Wings,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Slandered" Time & Time Again.

11:53pm

2008-03-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

Its 50% through. 4 weeks more & my attachment is over.

Wow! Its been a blast so far! I love the people there & since week 1 till today, i havent had a chance to go home straight after my work. It will happen. The record will be broken soon. But not so soon.

Today at office was super slack. Nothing to do at all. & realised my phone can be used so tried calling up many people. Lol.

After that, went to meet Kim, ShuBing & YuZhen for fellowship at Plaza Sing... Great fellowship...

Don't really have the mood to blog these few days...

Cheerobics venue is out! March 16 at Kallang Entertainment Centre or formerly known as Leisure Park... Its a brand new shopping mall... Should be at Vivo City, more people there can get to know SP Gusto! Tell me who will go to Kallang on a Sunday afternoon when's there no football match that day...

Today i also bought the most expensive chocolates i've ever bought in my life. Lol. But the shop is pretty cool!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"To Me, You're Everything. To You, I'm Nothing. We'll See."

What If...Lucifer

2008-03-07T00:48:00.003+08:00

When you says you're busy & i see so many email sent by Multiply saying that you've updated your blog, you're lying. A busy man is something like me. Did you see me update my blog these few days? What's your definition of Busy? (:

Lucifer loves Mary. But then came Jane. At the end, Lucifer finds out that his relationship with Mary was just a brother & sister kind of relationship. Lucifer realises that though he's with Mary almost everyday, Jane's the one that stole his heart & mesmerised him big time.

Mary < Lucifer (Then)
Lucifer > Jane (Now)
Lucifer <<< Jane
Lucifer = Mary = ???

What will you do if you're Lucifer?

Hugs & Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I Don't Wanna Be A Fallen Angel."

What's Your Ethics?

2008-03-02T13:32:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, life's so difficult to comprehend...

I give you a situation... On the way to Church one day on the 242 bus... You wore a new Ed Hardy after using your hard earned money from your work to pay for it... A few stops later, an old, fragile & weak granny with bags of groceries wearing some torn & tattered clothes boarded the bus... She saw a seat behind you & walks slowly but unsteadily to that seat... & you're napping in the bus after a tiring night out with your girlfriend/boyfriend... So the bus starts moving, makes a turn, she trips & the only thing she could grab hold of is you & so she grab you & pulls your Ed Hardy as she tries to gain control & not to fall...

So in the end, your Ed Hardy got torn big time cuz you know Ed Hardy's material is uber thin (No hard feelings towards Ed Hardy)... But she's alright, she didn't had a bad fall that might threaten her life as your Ed Hardy saved her life... But the problem is, your $200+ Ed Hardy is torn... Yeah, she apologises.

But the question is, will you ask her to compensate the shirt she has torn in consideration that she is so old already & wouldn't you feel some sorry-ness about it? Knowing that she doesn't have the finanaces to pay you, will you even take her to court? That is one alternative we should analyze on. Another is do you just accept her apology & says its okay because your conscience tells you that it is not right to demand compensation from such a poor lady... & you go home calling it a bad day... So its like swollowing all the hurt she caused on your Ed Hardy & forget about it...

So alternative one is something politically correct but sometimes our conscience tells us otherwise. Alternative two tells us to ignore it & in the end, you end up as a losing party.

Sometimes life's like that... You are stucked in situation like these... You feel sorry yet you don't wanna be heartless... But at times, we gotta be more heart hearted, be firm & know the purpose of what we're doing instead of being at the receiving end all the time...

As for the above scenario, i'd just let her go because i'm not that heartless. What i'm trying to illustrate is sometimes, we're just caught in situations like this... There's pros & cons in the both the alternatives... & it hurts you badly to choose either one... If you love others more, you'd defnitely choose alternative 2 & if you love youself more, you'd choose alternative 1...

It is through situations like these that enables one to scan through their hearts... & i'm glad at times, i chose the right decision... I'll just have to be more firm in the future...

& while reading this, if you feel there's something like a needle piercing through your heart, then i guess you gotta do something about it before it turns into a chainsaw...

Commitments & Responsibilties! I'm loving them more! I'm loving them more & more each day. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"If Life's About Being Politically Correct, There Wouldn't Be A Terrorist On The Run & George Bush."

"If Life's About Being Ethically Correct, There Must Be A Barack Obama In Our World Today."

Angels > Devil

2008-03-02T00:30:00.004+08:00

Today's service was uber awesome!

Not because of F.I.R but the WORD was so amazing! One of the best word i ever heard & it really touched me deeply... Just amazing! From today onwards, i will change for the better... You'll definitely see a Transformation in me...

& i realised i've controlled my temper, pantience pretty well these few days... That is of cuz besides yesterday... I just learnt something... When i'm pass with a responsibility, i mustn't be late at all... I gotta plan my time well... I know i have a soft heart, a heart that usually says 'Yes' all the time to people & therefore in the end i suffer the consequences like for example, being late... So yea, i gotta be more firm in the future & plan my time well... With that, i think i'm ready to take an even greater responsibilty...

By the way, i wasn't angry with anyone... I was frusttrated that everything went out wrong & was disappointed with myself not planning my time well... Thank God praise haven't start yet... Or else i G_G

Lol, i'm fine... No worries... I won't get affected by such negative stuffs that easily...

Agape,
Ed Angels

Know Me, Know Me Not...

2008-03-01T01:47:00.001+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

So sian. Nothing to do. So post this up. (:

BizAdmin Is Tough

2008-02-29T01:03:00.004+08:00

I should know my limits.

This semester was really crappy. Been busy with so many stuff & not concentrating on school works. All my subjects are studied in the last minute so seriously i don't expect to do well.

Then again, its not too bad too. Knowing that i didn't study well, 3 B's & 4 C's are alright! B refers to a Good Pass right? & C refers to Credit right? I can accept it. Or rather, it was kinda surprising cuz i thought i will get lots of C's & D's though.

You know, i was so not looking forward to seeing the results. Lol. Yeah, of cuz my GPA drops but you know its never easy to get a BizAdmin Diploma. See, the second day of orientation in year 1 i still vividly remember the school director pointing out my course, saying its one of the most difficult Business Diploma to get in SP.

Cultural Mandate. I finally understood the whole message behind it after experiencing it these past 3 weeks & coming few more weeks. Its been a privilege, please not let my Year 3 start so soon.

Argh, can someone watch 'L' with me? Lol. L > Kira.

Imagine everyone in Raffles Place wore Pink today. What a beautiful sight! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Love It or Hate It, Welcome To Absolute McLovin' "

Your Sympathy Is No Longer My Misery

2008-02-27T00:32:00.004+08:00

Wha, so many things are comong up soon! I'm excited! Cheerobics then Freshmen Orientation Camp then my Year 3 starts & i'm graduating in one year's time. These are the things i'm seriously looking forward to. The rest is such a routine.

I seriously dislike people that tries to gain one's sympathy. These people are losers. I know one of them & i hope he gets away from my life as soon as possible.

Boys & Girls, don't fall into his words. His sweet lullaby are just a hymn to gain our sympathy. Haha.

Then again, since my first day in my attachment till today, not a single day i went home straight after work. This week's definitely will not break that record. Maybe next Wednesday i guess. Got a chance to break that record.

Freshmen Orientation Camp is coming up. Feeling excited about it!

Why practice cheerleading till such a late hour? Why practice guitar at 12 midnight?

No Sacrifices, No Victories! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

42 Farenheit

2008-02-26T00:49:00.003+08:00

Earthquake?

Did you feel the building trembles?

Haha, it was rather a dull day at work today. Lol. Until 4+. There's an announcement to ask us to 'Stay Calm.' In my mind, i was thinking what is happening. Until seconds later, the second announcement came. There were tremors felt in the Central Biz District area. Then third announcement asking us to wait for a few moments to confirm whether to evacuate the building or not. But sadly, we don't need to. If not, climbing down 42 storeys would be real cool. It'll be like a 9/11.

I felt the whole situation was damn cool! I love situations like this. Haha. Everyone was like stop working & wait for the announcements. Lol. I'm gonna record that down in my Log Book. Lol.

Cheerleading training was just as great. I'm like so close to these people that its like they're my second family. Lol. Almost 5 days a week i sees them. So cool! We'll gonna shine for SP.

Friday night please go away! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I Have An Urge For An Emerge."

From Angels With Love

2008-02-23T23:34:00.004+08:00

I kept thinking to myself on the way home. I thought to myself, why live your life for someone else when you can live it for yourself. Why spend so much on someone you truly love when you can bless yourself with lots of TopMan, River Islands & etc.

I tried to find a new answer. A answer that is not a fairytale. But no, i couldn't. The answer why i did these is still this 4 letter word- LOVE!

Because of love, confusion sets in, pain comes into your soul, hurt starts to enter your heart, insecurity gets in your mind, hatred starts to show in our actions, anxiety starts to fill your heart, you starts to cry for no reason, jealousy comes in too.

However because of love, one finds hope in their life, one finds a sense of affection, satisfaction; one can find a reason to live again, one starts to become creative, innovative, one can smile again, one can experience the feeling of joy, happiness & warmth, & most importanly, one can learn to love again.

Love is so two-sided. Bitter yet sweet at times. Hurting yet you still felt like giving & giving & giving becuase you love that person. Angel yet devilish at times. Unfair against you yet bias to you at some times. Painful yet warmth. For example, Jane loves Simon more than Peter yet Peter loves Jane more than what Simon loves Jane. Understand?

Its like:
(The < or > refers to who love who more)
Simon < Jane
Peter > Jane
Jane > Simon
Jane < Peter

The above illustration doesn't make an equation because the signs are all wrong, messed up if you did realise. But sometimes, that's the equation of love. That's how love works.

In the past, it wasn't like this. You were the sunshine girl, the one that smiles all the time. One that smiles even in her darkest hours. One has so much hope, joy & excitement in the words she speak. One that is willing to share everything with me. One that doesn't have much burdens. One that's most importantly, brightens up my day.

What happen now? You've turned into another person. One that is emotional, one that is full of burden, one that i don't wish to talk to anymore, one that doesn't shares, one that i felt so much hurt & anguish when i talk to you, one that gets tired, one that makes me so miserable & painful when i look at you.

I tried my best already. I care so much about you yet can see how much you cared for me. Do you really think that ONLY God cares for you in this world? What about me? What about all your other friends? I'm kinda disappointed as i thought to myself.

& i just realised i've been trying to adapt to a new environment for one year already but I still can't adapt. This place is so UN-LOVED! Everyone's so selfish when it comes to showing love, bootlicking, so fake, trying to gain everyone's sympathy & impressing people. Yes, accepting people for who they are. But its so difficult to accept them for who they are. Everyone come & go. I know my working friends better than some of them there. Its so shameful. I feel so disgusted about it at times. It wasn't like this one year ago. Where's the bond? I don't see a bond now.

Anyway, i'm looking forward to Cheerleading training tomorrow. I'm drowning myself with the sounds of my guitar, cheerleading & my attachments stuff. Then there's no way i'll feel unaccepted & not loved at that damn un-loved place anymore. Anyway, i believe its just temporary. In a few months times hopefully, it'll be a new environment.

Many people often forget about one thing. They remember 'Loving God Whole-Heartedly' but they often forget to 'Loving People Fervently' because to this group of people, God is perfect & people are not, so they tend to not love people. When they do this, God will never forsake them but the people around him or her will eventually fade away. Yes, i'm talking about you!

Oh yea, i want that book badly. the title is something like 'Your Mind is the Battlefield' or something like that. You know i don't buy book cuz i find it a waste of money buying a few pieces of paper.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I Wish I Was Still Back In 2006 Easter. Just woken up from a Sweet Dream."

The Painter

2008-02-19T00:23:00.003+08:00

The Painter

If I were a painter
Mixing my colors
How could I ever find the blue of your eyes
The canvas could never
Capture the light of your smile, of your smile

And girl if I were a sculptor
Working in marble
I couldnt hope to copy your perfect face
The curve of your body
The feel of your skin
My hands could never
Ever trace

So I try to find the melody as beautiful as you
Find the words to say your eyes are bluer than blue
Fill my voice with the emotion Im feeling for you
And now when the beat is so strong
Id give my heart in a song

If I were an actor
I could be someone
Someone whod always know the right things to say
But as soon as Id see you
I'd forget all my lines
And youd never know what I feel inside

Theres no other way
That I know to say
Baby how much I love you
And if only youd give me a chance

Beautiful song hur?

Today Cheerleading training is fruitful la. Everything is going well now. Cheerleading = The flyers are the stars, the base are just the supporting actors. Lol.

Tomorrow i'll post something more.

Lastly, God, please heal her. Take away all her pain. I feel so helpless after receving that message, all i could do is to send a get well soon SMS. I just realised i can't heal, only God can.

Oh man, i just realised it isn't LiveJournal here, but who cares? (Haha, insider's joke)

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Show Me Some Concern, If Not I'll Stay Emo Forever."

Ed Hardy Rants By Ed Angels

2008-02-17T00:35:00.003+08:00

Ed Hardy Rants

Lifestyle of the Rich & the Famous?

I was too naive in the past. I treated Ed Hardy second to God.

Well today, the more i look at my Ed Hardy, the more sick & disgusted i felt. How did my taste got so bad. I thought Ed Hardy was everything in the past. It just look like a second hand goods from Mustafa Centre right now. The blings look so gay in my opinion. How did i manage to fall in love with the blings in the first place?
Yucky, you won't see me wearing that dumb 2 Ed Hardys i have anymore. Maybe to training & to supermarket?

Crocs, Crumpler, Ed Hardy, they're all going down the same direction unless a miracle happens.

& i can't believe it. I paid $200 plus for a shirt that keeps expanding. (I felt so insulted by that shirt, its like its telling me you've grown fatter Eddy. -_____-) A shirt whose skin is as thin as 3 & a half pieces of tissues put together.

Then the problem is, 'No one recognises that brand even if i wore it to school or to the street.' Was the paint part of the art. Yes, definitely cuz we all know. But what about those that don't. How fake the paint can be.

Even if someone recognises that brand, they will ask, 'Is your Ed Hardy fake one or real one?' Its damn frustrating. That's it! I have enough of this brand.

I've found a new style that suits me best. No more Ed Hardys crap anymore. Actually, i felt that dressing is mixing & matching with the right accessories. Thank God i found that out in time. Just keep noticing me for the next few weeks & you'll realise what my new style is all about.

& i tell you, i will laugh till my pants drop if someone's dying to get a Ed Hardy. My advice, invest in TopMan/River Island/Guess/Zara or Forever 21 (for girls) & put the rest into Building Fund.

Bling Bling Go Away

Life is all about growing up. & its time to grow up in this aspect of my life i guess.

Its like there's a time i left my underwears for boxers. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"A Shirt Without A Tie To Me Is Like A Church Without A Pastor."

This Life Since Dec Four Two Thousand Five... So Hard

2008-02-16T23:34:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i just feel God & Cell Group works in different ways.

Sometimes i just felt so tired lor. Like wha, so many commitments, so lethargic.

Sometimes i wonder is this worth doing so much.

Haha, its easy to say i did it because of God. But seriously, is it just answering by giving a politically correct or is that answer really from the bottom of my heart?

I used to joke so much there but now, in a new environment, i find it so difficult to joke. Maybe everyone's serious here. I guess so. I can't wait to be 'shipped' out.

"I Have Decided To Follow YOU, No Turning Back, No Turning Back." The song goes something like that right? Anyway, does this sentence refers only to God? Or God plus "something else"? If its refers to the latter one, then sorry, i don't mean it in my heart.

Why God & Cell Group works in different way?

Becuase God is perfect. The rest is not.

No, I'm Not EMO!
I'm just trying to figure out something weird which God doesn't says we must do.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Friday 15

2008-02-16T00:38:00.003+08:00

Hehe. This week is awesome.

I've completed my first week of attachment le.

Had lunch with Celest today cuz my friends all busy with their work. Haha. Its not Kim ar, its my colleague from my company. Its abit difficult to reach out to her. Lol.

After that went to town to meet someone. Was kind of a great fellowship. Quality time i guess. & yea, the truth has set me free. But nearly vomitted with all the food we've eaten.

I've lots of guilty pleasure today. So sinful, had Muddy Mud Pie & Strawberry Smoothie at one go. Guess Which Is Sweeter?

Its a short post. Cuz i'm really tired. Tired but still happy! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"One Day, What If I'm Gone..."

Happy V Day

2008-02-14T00:21:00.002+08:00

Well, Happy Valentine's Day everyone! Hope everyone is doing okay here. Hehe. Yeah, i've got a song to dedicate to all here today. Be it you're married, attached, single, divorced (oops) or curve. May all experience God's love in such a tangible way this Valentine's Day.

V-Day is not only for lovers ba, i think its a time where you shower love with your loved ones, be it your family, friends or colleagues. Its a day where friendship are restored back to the way it should be, it should be a day where we renew our first love for God & etc. Yeah!

& like what those fairy tales stories, i wish a 'Happily Ever After' ending for all married, attached people reading my blog now. (:

Here's the song. Haha. Took me a long time to find wor. Lol.

羅文裕 Wing- 愛情漫遊

就怕時間不夠讓你好好愛我
偶而我犯的錯
你連寬容也溫柔
沈默也是溝通哭泣也為感動
不管黑夜白晝
我會讓你無淚無憂
時間慢慢走像一個沙漏
愛細水長流
不管天多冷有你抱著我
也會覺得暖和

我和你一前一後一左一右
在愛情漫遊
眼前的風光雖美不勝收
比不過你一個笑容
最初的感動還留在心中
從來沒變過
那怕有一天我們都老了
還要牽你的手

故事的最後結局會有許多種
而我們的愛是唱不完的歌

我和你一前一後一左一右
在愛情漫遊
眼前的風光雖美不勝收
比不過你一個笑容
最初的感動還留在心中
從來沒變過
那怕有一天我們都老了
還要牽你的手
那怕有一天我們都老了
還要牽你的手

Well, today had an awesome day at work again. The people there are very helpful. I thank God again for blessing me with another wonderful day at work. As i'm in the logistic department, i'm tasked to declare Dangerous Goods to PSA. So cool. Can track where the ship is & etc. Lol. Its like first-hand information to everything. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Blessed

2008-02-12T23:02:00.001+08:00

I just felt so blessed. So blessed by God.

From the bottom of my heart, i really wanna thank God for placing me into such a wonderful company.

All those politics, nonsense i heard from my friends (i guess they're scaring me) don't exist there. The working environment is so condusive. I never really see everyone in the while compnay so united before. Joking, laughing & playing jokes on one another.

As i have studied Management Organisational Behaviour, their culture is something like more on building relationships than setting goals. Its really cool. Everyone is like so relaxing, approachable. Met the Managing Director (MD) today, he's a freaking damn nice guy. The way he speaks carry this certain aura. No wonder the H.R. Manager told us he's such a nice guy. Just a 3 minutes meeting in his office & he handed us a Red Packet.

Well, Red Packet only what. When i opened it up, i was shocked wor. 50 bucks! OMG! I'm not money-faced or whatever but i'm just too surprised that the amount is so much cuz we're just some internship students attached to his company. I guess he's some rich guy. That's why can bless us with so much money. Lol.

Somehow i realise to find a workplace environment fun & healthy, the first thing that determines that is your ATTITUDE! I really find joy in working there. School has no meaning for the things that i've learnt is not as application as what i've learnt over the past 2 days. I told myself, let not be the comments of others affect your attitude towards work. Even if someone's tries to hurt me or backstab me, its alright because i know GOD is with me 24/7. I shall fear no evil. Amen?

Through him (MD), i also met a new colleague at work today. Her name is Celest! & she's an SP graduate being attached to that company a few years back. So i guess her work rate was excellent that's why the boss offer her a job when she graduates. Well, i really hope i can be like her. Before i grauduate, i'm already offered with a job. So cool right, don't need to go source for jobs. Yeah, i really gonna work so hard to earn that privilege.

I'm looking forward to work everyday from today onwards. Life's good! I'm so eager to learn so much more things!

But seriously, all these cannot be done with your prayers. I know & i know, there's someone out there that prayed for me because i can feel it. Thanks for your prayers. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I Will Make It Through The Storm"

St. 'Devil' Valentine

2008-02-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

After reading someone's blog.

I felt so hurt & helpless.

Hurt because the words are so heartfelt, so genuine that it pierces through my heart. Maybe i felt the burden of yours too.

Helpless because i don't think i can help much. So useless right.

Back to my topic today, Saint Valentine. Couples treat him like angels but did one ever look at the other side of the coin?

He's the one that brought so much distress into the hearts of the Single...
He's the one that brought so much pain & anxiety into the hearts of the Single...
He's the one that brought suicidal thoughts into the minds of the Single...

& do you know how many singles are out there in this world feeling this way. Statistic shows that 4 in every billion people commit suicide on Valentine's Day in 2006 & 1 out of these 4 is because they have no one to spend valentine's Day with. Why do one let a man who is not even God be so affected about this day? I tell you, don't let the devil take control of your emotions. This is only a day of business gimmick, whereby florists will earn 10 times more than they earn every month.

Come think of it, what rich history does it have? If you love your loved ones, you are supposed to love them everyday, not just suddenly shower them with gifts & cards on this February 14 right? So yea, Singles reading this post, don't let this day be affected by you. If i love someone, be it Valentine's Day or not, i will just buy a gift on random days if i have enough to spend. You get my point?

Fools lavish gifts on Valentine's Day cuz that's when the prices of gifts & flowers goes up. Amen? Lol.

Of cuz what i've written above will definitely creates lots of comments for some people. I believe people will say things like, 'Ed Angels is such a sour grape.' Well, i tend to think from both perspective before i blog so yea, i can never please everyone. Hehe.

First day at work was pretty cool. My head of department wasn't there so i just surfed the net. Friendster, & MSN are all blocked so i spent the whole afternoon reading about Barack Obama. I love him to pieces. The people there are alright. & its really a privilege to work there. I felt like i've made it. The 'I'm on top of the world' feeling! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Cheerleading was pretty cool! Stunts were great. Just that i hope Genevieve is fine. Hope no internal injuries or whatsover after that freaky fall not once but twice. Well, but it really takes loads of courage to do such a ridiculous but beautiful stunt. If i'm the flyer, i think my parents will kill me if they saw me doing that. (Ermx, let me visualise myself being a flyer for awhile la can?)

Sometimes God puts one in a weird position. I guess i've not been a decision-maker, you know that kind of 'Anything lah' guy so i guess this time God places me 2 choices to see which one i will choose from. & i think i've made the right one & i hope God will be proud of that choice i've made.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"When You're Down, I'm Down Twice"

"When You're Hurt, I'm Hurt Twice"

"When You're Happy, I'm Happy To The Infinity"

New Lease Of Rubbish

2008-02-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

Wow! Monday i'll have a new lease of life. But most importantly, these are some of my wishlist for my attachment. Some is kinda ridiculous! (especially point 4)

1) A working table which can give me a view of the Singapore skyline

2) Early Knockoff (So i can reach my training on time)

3) No work on Saturday

4) 90% Female Working Environment

5) Free Leg Massage Vouchers (In case the lift spoils & i need to climb 42 storeys of stairs)

6) Friendly Colleagues (& Won't backstab that kind)

7) Boss must not be as demanding as my primary school Art teacher

8) Colleagues to lunch with me in restaurant daily!

Anyway, today was a FUN day. Well, kinda overslept so i thought okay, i'll be the latest to reach. But no ar, Kim 妹妹 also overslept. So cool lor, met me at Outram then we took a cab down to YingJie's house. Hehe.

Well, played some games there. Like MRT game, the game Julian taught the SP Peeps & etc. Lol. & we made fun of Huiwen badly. Until she felt so guilty go buy a cake for Valerie. & as usual, i'm the mastermind behind everything! Hehe.

& omg, JiaHui's had a boyfriend. Lol. Shuai lehx, her boyfriend. If i'm a girl i also will like him de. Haha. Anyway, i wanna wish them all the best, may happiness be with you guys forever. Hehe.

Then wanted to catch a movie at Jurong Point but all sold out so too bad lor, settled for MOS Burger. Lol. Then went down to meet the SP peeps. Haha, watch KungFu Dunk. Lol. Jay Chou's not handsome but he's absolutely mclovin'ly CHARISMATIC!

No wonder everyone crazy over him. Haha. The way he speaks is cool. Anyway, my 妹妹 was locked outside her house cuz she forgotten to bring her keys. Poor thing la. Cuz i experience that kind of feeling before. One will be filled with anguish de lor. Haha, see you should have joined me at Bugis for awhile. Hehe. (:

Lastly, here are some pictures we took today. I still have loads to upload. Hehe.

Me & Val On Bus To Jurong Point

Me & my 妹 on the cab

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"God Bless My Attachment @ OCBC."

When I'm Gone

2008-02-08T12:35:00.001+08:00

Good stuff in store for all!

Still remember singing songs with lyrics like this: "I'm just a kid & life is a nightmare" or "I'm addict, I'm addicted to you" or "How could this happen to me, I made my mistakes, Got no where to run, The night goes on as I'm fading away, I'm sick of this life, I just wanna scream,How could this happen to me" when you're ditched by your first crush?

Well, Simple Plan is back with a bang! I guess this song i'm gonna introduce here is gonna make waves all around the radio stations in the world. So yea, i'll grab headlines first! Haha.

Their album are not out yet. But here's one of their hit single off their new album. Title is "When I'm Gone"... Doesn't really sound good the first time you hear but after subsequent listening, you can feel that same old Simple Plan vibe. Lol.

MTV

Lyrics

I look around me
But all I seem to see
Is people going nowhere
Expecting sympathy
It’s like we’re going through the motions
Of the scripted destiny
Tell me where’s our inspiration
If life wont wait
I guess it’s up to me

Whoahh
No we’re not gonna waste another moment in this town
Whoahh
We wont come back, the world its calling out
Whoahh
Leave the past in the past gonna find the future
And misery loves company
Well so long
You’ll miss me when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

Procrastination running circles in my head
While you sit there contemplating you’ll wind up left for dead (left for dead)
Life is what happens
While you’re busy making your excuses
Another day, another casualty
But that won’t happen to me

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Who Is He?

2008-02-06T14:05:00.000+08:00

Well, this is one email i received from a friend which i find it very cool!

IN CHEMISTRY, HE TURNED WATER TO WINE;

IN BIOLOGY, HE WAS BORN WITHOUT THE NORMAL CONCEPTION;

IN PHYSICS, HE DISPROVED THE LAW OF GRAVITY WHEN HE ASCENDED INTO HEAVEN;

IN ECONOMICS, HE DISPROVED THE LAW OF DIMINISHING RETURN BY FEEDING 5000 MEN WITH TWO FISHES & 5 LOAVES OF BREAD;

IN MEDICINE, HE CURED THE SICK AND THE BLIND WITHOUT ADMINISTERING A SINGLE DOSE OF DRUGS,

IN HISTORY, HE IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END;

IN GOVERNMENT, HE SAID THAT HE SHALL BE CALLED WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, PRINCE OF PEACE;

IN RELIGION, HE SAID NO ONE COMES TO THE FATHER EXCEPT THROUGH HIM;

SO. WHO IS HE?
HE IS JESUS!

JOIN ME AND LET'S CELEBRATE HIM;
HE IS WORTHY.

THE EYES BEHOLDING THIS MESSAGE SHALL NOT BEHOLD EVIL,
THE HAND THAT WILL SEND THIS MESSAGE TO EVERYBODY SHALL NOT LABOR IN VAIN,
AND THE MOUTH SAYING AMEN TO THIS PRAYER SHALL SMILE FOREVER.
REMAIN IN GOD AND SEEK HIS FACE ALWAYS.
AMEN.

IN GOD I'VE FOUND EVERYTHING!

The Greatest Man in History
Jesus had no servants, yet they called Him Master.
Had no degree, yet they called Him Teacher.
Had no medicines, yet they called Him Healer.
He had no army, yet kings feared Him..
He won no military battles, yet He conquered the world.
He committed no crime, yet they crucified Him.
He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today.
I feel honored to serve such a Leader who loves us!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"If you deny me before man, I will deny you before my Father in Heaven."

Chinese New Year Is Around The Corner

2008-02-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

CNY is coming! I love CNY because its a time where i really felt Loved in the family when everyone comes together to fellowship, talk & know each other better. & then after that, its back to normal. Yeah, & my cell group is coming to my house for the first time! Lol.

As soon as tomorrow, its a brand new year in the Lunar calendar. Wow, time flies, the first month of 2008 just swept past me.

Anyway, i'm happy because some friendship of mine is restored.

Wha, Yui's 'I Remember You' is uber nice! Best song after 'Taiyou No Uta' but too bad i can't put it as my blog background music cuz later people say i copy.

I seriously don't know what to blog. & Friendster is getting more bored because i've been receiving no comments or the same comments from Candicee only. Haha. Lol. I still remember once i had so much passion for Friendster.

What an eventful one week it will be. Internship starting next Monday. Yeah, I'm so excited about it. I don't care if my boss is demanding or an ass, as long as he releases me at 5pm for my Cheerleading training, I'll be fine with him cuz nothing's more important than Cheerleading right now. Not even my school stuff. I don't wanna bring the whole team down becuz of my absence.

Yeah, tomorrow CNY shopping again! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Burn It Up & Let It Go

2008-02-03T23:34:00.001+08:00

By not reading the post, you are doing our friendship a harm.

Hmmm, these few days seems like the devil is interfering in everything i do. Trying to create a barrier between me & my relationship with family & friends.

Actually i love spiritual attack like this firstly NUMBER 1, THE DEVIL KNOWS I'M DOING WELL THAT'S WHY HE WANTS TO HURT ME & NUMBER 2, i know that if my heart is with God & i follow God till the end, the ending must be good so i should fear no evil! Even if its not, i'm fine with that comparing my situation with how the people crucified my God's only child. Its alright if people misunderstands me, think that i lie or whatever, i'll just keep quiet. Just like Jesus, he just takes it all, takes all the whipping. In the end, men may fail but God will never fail me. You see, he just takes it all & never rebukes. & i don't need to prove such things to men, God can judge lor.

Haha, tell u guys something. I actually suffer from mild Low Blood Pressure so i tend to get headache frequently. So yea, the case was like this, i had an exam on Monday & i went to see a doctor before that too to get some prescription. So happenly, my mom saw the medicine & ASSUME i didn't went for the test. Yeah, true that's was my past. The things that i do when i coldn't study finish for my exams. So yea, like what Vernon said to her last Sunday, its time to forget about the past. But the problem is did she? Its okay if she doesn't forget about it but she brought it up & assume the past. She just assumes it & told some people about it that i didn't went to school for my exams. So basically, the headache was really bad, like as if i'm gonna faint, so i went to the doctor & went for the exams & man, the medicine works miracle or maybe its God's healing. Haha.

So i need to clarify these things here in case people say, 'Argh, Ed lies again. He says he will change over a new leaf but see, the same thing happens." That's very hurting to hear that. True, i have learnt a lesson here too. Don't Assume. Assume is such a bad thing. Assume if u break it up, equals to 'Ass You & Me.' If u do realise. Lol.

So yea, i've openly discuss & told her about it & she understands. So yea, life is mainly about proper communication i guess. & also about transparency, openess & not discuss things about behind people's back without finding out the truth with the victim first. Last but not least, i have no one to blame but the devil. I'm victimised by that asshole badly this week so i guess i'm still hurt over what happen. But nonetheless, you guys & especially me should be glad that i've seen some light in this negative situation.

Yeah, i feel good after writing this post. I have said what i've to say. The rest is up to the people to decide on. I'm so excited about tomorrow cuz CHEERLEADING TRAINING RESUMES! Woo Hoo!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Take The Past, Burn It Up & Let It Go."

Am I Forgiven?

2008-02-03T00:54:00.000+08:00

This post goes out to you (You know who you are):

Haiz, i guess i'm too immature in my thinking & i get insecure easily that's why it led to this misunderstanding. Then again, its really bad. I think she's really upset with me for me saying that she does't trust me. It was really a moment of rashness that made me said it.

Yeah, i should find out the whole situation first before i comment.

The whole thing is not as bad as i thought. But then again, i guess the devil's been pouring negative words into my mind that lead me to say things that i never meant to say from the bottom of my heart. Hope this can be a lesson to strengthen our friendship.

In the end, what matters is i've realised my mistake, apologised & forgiveness is up to you.

I'm hurt badly. It hurt me so badly that i've loss my appetite, i've just had one meal today. Only your forgiveness can mend the hurt in my heart, if not it'll be a scar that will stay there forever & ever.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

I'll Be Ok

2008-01-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

Here's a song i listen to when i'm down. Haha. Its kinda cool! By McFly.

When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
its been so long now
You've forgotten how to smile.
And overhead the skies are clear
But it still seems to rain on you,
And your only friends all have
Better things to do.

When you're down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost
Along the way,
Oh, just tell yourself
I, I'll be OK

Now things are only getting worse
And you need someone to take the blame
When your lover's gone
There's no-one to share the pain,
You're sleeping with the TV on
And you're lying in an empty bed
All the alcohol in the world
Would never help me to forget

When you're down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost
Along the way,
Just try a little harder
Try your best to make it
Through the day,
Oh just tell yourself
I, I'll be OK

You're not alone (you're not alone)
You're not alone (you're not alone)
You're not alone

OhmyGod, hope there's no camera outside the toilets if not i might be 'suspended' from school. Haha. (This someone, agree with me right?)

Yeah! SP is haunted at night! Lol. When night falls, the business block disappears. You will only see the RED BRIDGE hanging in the air! HAHA!

Wow! Tomorrow is the last paper! Cool! Finally! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Exams Sickness

2008-01-28T23:30:00.001+08:00

Oh man! I received a present today. I was thrilled at first but was shocked when i opened it. I don't wish to say what it is inside because i don't think i will use it & it'd be shameful to use it. But i thank you for this person who bought this gift for me. I appreciate your thought. But its really something i can't use & i'm not suppose to use. & man, that thing is expensive & kinda disgusting at the same time. & my mom would kill me if she saw it & most probably if i explain it well i think she'll understand. Nah, i want to dispose it away but its a gift, so i think its wrong to dispose it away.

Haha, you know who you are. But you never read my blog so its okay.

Exams Exams Exams. Next up, Human Resource Management paper. I've got the whole day to prepare tomorrow. I think i'm one quarter done for revision. Quite cool.

Anyway, i have some pics to upload. Here you go.

January 26

See The Difference?

Eerong's Birthday

ZhiHao's Birthday @ New York New York

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Apolegetic

2008-01-26T20:34:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry, Kim

I'm sorry, YuPing

I'm sorry, my cell group members

I'm sorry, my SPC peeps

I'm sorry, my lecturers & classmates

I'm sorry, my family

I'm sorry, Daddy God

& MOST IMPORTANTLY, I'M SORRY MOM!

My heart is so painful & heavy right now. I wanna apologise to these groups of people because of my moment of foolishness. A moment of rash that causes me to have this feeling. I'm typing this with a very heavy heart with tears flowing down my cheek.

I'm sorry for the comment i made against my mom last year on this blog. If you guys still remember, i wrote bad, disgusting things about her becuase of one moment of anger. Though its been said, published & shown all over the world for those people that visit my blog. I'M TRULY SORRY FOR MAKING THOSE IGNORANT COMMENT ABOUT HER. I didn't know it can break her heart so badly. Since i arrogantly made such comments about her a month ago, i should be a man & sincerely apologise to her for what i've done. I regretted it thoroughly. I need her forgiveness.

She's the one that blesses me with everything. A laptop, a iPod Touch, a Sony Ericsson handphone. & this is the way i treated her. Where is justice? I've just woken up today.

& i meant every word i say here.

& sorry Kim for dragging you into this mess. I feel so ashamed of myself. Ashamed becuase she rather confide in you than her own son. That means how a losuy son i've been.

Sorry Kim for tolerating my nonsense since day one. Sorry Yuping for dragging you into this thing too. Sorry to my CG members & SPC Peeps for reading those things i've written, i hope it didn't shocked u guys too much. Sorry to my lecturers & classmates for not attending lectures regularly and yet you guys have been so great to me. Sorry to my family for not spending enough quality time with you guys. Lastly, sorry Daddy God. I believe after reading those things i have wrote, Your heart breaks the most.

I'm longing for a pure heart. I seek forgiveness from the people i've mentioned above. Give me a second chance, give me this last chance. I will change & i want to change. I want to change into a better person, a person that is more accountable, a person that is more secure, a person that is less emotional & a person where everyone can look up to.

I'm sorry for the person i become. I've turned into such an ass, a person with multiple personality, acting like an angel when i'm with my friends & acting like a devil when i'm at home. Please forgive me. From tomorrow onwards, you will definitely see a TRANSFORMATION in me. I pray for more Agape, Unconditional Love to flow through me & my mom, my friends, my cell group members, my classmates as well as everyone that i've contact with.

Sorry for the distress i have created among you guys. Lastly, to reinforce my point of this post. I'm sorry Mom.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Keep your tongue from evil, and your lips from speaking guile. Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it."
-Psalm 34:13-14

Lethargic

2008-01-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

This is Cheerleading at its extreme. You guys gotta watch. Its just a few minutes. That guy is a pervert. How did he managed to do that? I'm so envious of him!

I'm stressed, that's why i'm feeling so emotional. I'm stressed, that is why my thoughts run wild. I'm stress, that's why i always imagine the worst scenario.

I'm so tired of running this race. When can i ever pass the baton? My life's like that? When we are young, we study till our lungs can't breathe, study till so hard. Then when we're old, we get into the workforce with possibilty of being retrenched, backstabbed in your office. Why is this world so cruel? I'm so tired of doing the same routine every year.

Love? Haha. Give & give & give & never expect anything back? Yeah, very true. I can do that too. But its such a painful process. Especially one day you see the one you love loving others. That's some nightmares i have a few days ago. The image keeps flashing through my mind again & again.

I am so afraid to keep on living. I am so afraid walk this road alone.

Here's the lyrics of my current background song. Its a very sweet song. Your heart will melt after listening to it. Actually i don't really listen to Mandarin songs, but its just some influence that's all. Punk Forever!

Its by 郭美美 & its title is 左手边

风吹过蓝天在下雨之间
云能飞多远
爱它偶尔很甜偶尔也很咸
我已经体验
我们来回的悠闲
有一些已经不见这些年 oh

hey 你说的明天是一种信念
还是封信件
对爱不是阴天也不是明天
它好难分辨
可是我的心里面
有种感觉很特别没人了解

我走在左边你的左边
看得见幸福的平原
也许你并不会察觉
这就是我的无声的冒险
我走过晴天阴天或雨天
那几年就叫做永远
这一切消失之前
我会对自己说
我要永远永远在你左手边

hey 你说的明天是一种信念
还是封信件
对爱不是阴天也不是明天
它好难分辨
可是我的心里面
有种感觉很特别没人了解
我走在左边你的左边
看得见幸福的平原
也许你并不会察觉
这就是我的无声的冒险
我走过晴天阴天或雨天
那几年就叫做永远
这一切消失之前
我会对自己说
我要永远永远在你左手边

无声的冒险

我走在左边你的左边
看得见幸福的平原
也许你并不会察觉
这就是我的无声的冒险
我走过晴天阴天或雨天
那几年就叫做永远
这一切消失之前
我会对自己说
我要永远永远在你左手边

TV sucks too. Channel 8 dramas, or whatever dramas you see on TV, there's definitely some Love story. Be it a police investigation drama, a comedy or even a drama on law, there'll definitely be some, I love you now, then we broke up then we get back together again scene. So stupid can? It doesn't makes one feel better after watching those crappy shows.

Life's such a whore.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

A Day At NTU

2008-01-24T00:27:00.000+08:00

Went to support my Cheerleading coach Julian today at NTU.

Team Singapore Vs Team Singapore Poly. Wha, what a big difference. The ACES KICKASS!

Quoted from Raymond, their hand muscle is equivalent to his thigh. Lol. I thought they were overweight at first.

Anyway, congrats to Julian & his team for getting 2nd. The 3rd place team don't deserve it man! Their tower fell twice. Anyway, its not my school, i'm just a spectator today. Lol. NTU is freaking BIG! Its so scary. Try playing cathcing there. (:

WHAT AM I GONNA DO TOMORROW? Haha.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"You Encourage Like A Mother, Love Like A Sister."

Change Of Address (:

2008-01-23T00:42:00.001+08:00

I Felt It Needed The Change. So Now, Ed-McLovin.BlogSpot.Com is Now called AgapED.Angels.BlogSpot.Com

Please make the necessary change. I'm so sorry. I have my reasons for changing my address.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

This I Swear...

2008-01-20T23:26:00.000+08:00

Wha, this is a very very beautiful song. Just look at its lyrics.

But i guess its quite a old song.

This I Swear By Nick Lachey

You're there by my side
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you

I may not say it half as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

So whenever you get weary
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down my love

These few days been fellowshipping non stop with Kim, Cheryl & Daniel. 3 days of fellowship. Fellowshipping is my food for the brain. These few days i've also been practising my guitar for a hour daily. I even recorded a song i've sang. Will share with you guys if i wished to. Anyway, Kim broke her bond lor. She says wanna wear the dress to service today? Haha, in the end never wor.

I'm happy over some things but at the same time, i'm feeling very burdened & confused about that happy thing. Ed Angels is a weird kid right? Haha. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Btw, i'm seeing CNY songs on WeiPin's blog. So funny. dong dong dong qiang, dong dong dong qiang! gong xi ah gong xi, fa ah fa da cai!

"From The Day You Took My Hand, Never Want To Be Apart From You Again."

Thurs...day

2008-01-18T01:49:00.000+08:00

Wow! Today's cell group meeting has been very empowering. Lol.

So many things have changed in 2008. Haha, but the change is good.

I thought everyone in the cell group step out of our comfort zone today by praying. Yeah, its like you will have that hesistant feeling when you pray. Its like you felt like praying, but you're afraid so it holds you back. But after praying, it really felt so awesome. Its like something uncomfortable in you that's been release. I guess that's first step out of your comfort zone.

Anyway, i'm so amazed by this one person in the cell group. That person is Kim! Yeah, honoured or not? I mentioned you in my blog lehx. From a shy, quiet & inferior girl to a spiritual, sunshine & prayer warrior. Well, you gotta experience it to believe it. That's a real awesome example of stepping out in faith. Cuz i'm with her in the same cell group since W220 time, her growth is unexplaniably FAST! That's the power of God man!

If so can she, why can't i? 2008 will be a year of breakthroughs for me. If i can see it, i can have it! Yeah!

Well, exams are coming real soon. & i'm still slacking. I shall not fear for God's grace is with me. Its still too early to study right now. Can't wait for tomorrow. I'm gonna mug till the afternoon then go meet Daniel. Hmmm, not sure what are we doing. Then at night, i'm gonna meet Kim, Yuping, JX & a few of my cell group members. & saturday is all about mugging.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Materialistic Boy

2008-01-15T19:16:00.001+08:00

Materialistic Boy

- New Urban Male Plain Formal Coloured Tee (Orange, Red & Pink, I Want Them All)
- River Island Pointed Formal Shoes
- River Island Belts & Accessories
- Fourskin Polkka Dot Polo Tee
- A New 'New Urban Male' Bag
- Nike or Adidas Jacket
- Spain Adidas Soccer Jersey
- Famous Stars & Strap Tees
- Red Skinny Jeans
- Ripcurl's Casual Shorts
- Sony Ericsson W910i
- Zara Formal Tees
- TopMan Black Jacket

Hopefully,
- iPhone (Argh, shouldn't have gotten iPod Touch)

Ermx, ah haha. I want get them all real soon. But i gotta fulfill my tithes & etc. Oh dear, non of those items there cost less than 50 bucks. Maybe the accessories. Haha. Well, i'm lazy to edit my wishlist so i've decided to post it. Haha.

Yesterday had a awesome fellowship with the SP Cheer peeps. Lol. Watched Body 19 at Orchard Cineleisure cuz Joshua won 11 free movie tickets. Haha, considered a way of blessing too.

Ohmygod,Chen Cheng got so freak out by the movie. I just realised, he's afraid of 2 things. First, cockroaches. Now, horror movies. He screamed so loud during one scary part till it makes me laugh till my stomach hurts.

Lol. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Pictures!!!

2008-01-14T01:03:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, here are some of my pcitures i took during the SP Open House '08. Well, i still have loads. Some's still in my camera & some's in my friend's handphone camera waiting to be bluetooth. Enjoy! (:

SP Gusto

SP Gusto Before Performance (Together With CCA Director & SP Principal)

Courageous Genevieve Shoulder Standing On Me

Shoulder Sitting WeiPin! Strong Boys In The Making!

WeiPin, Candice, Kaytee, Gen & Ed Angels

& HERE ARE SOME REALLY OLD PICTURES!!!

Me + Kim @ Sentosa (Think Around 3 Months Ago)

Me, Kim & Terry Miles

Watched Alien Vs. Predator 2 today. & i slept inside the cinema. When i woke up, its the ending already. Don't watch. I can't even differentiate who's the alien & who's the predator. First time watching a movie i fallen asleep. Wasted my money. Somemore watch at some deserted place at Jurong Point. No sound effect at all. But anyway, its more about the fellowship.

Golemak Road = Guillemard Road. OMG! That's so lame! Started by Kim! (:

I have a test on Tuesday. Please pray for me. Thankies alot.

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Mixed Feelings"

Last Day Of SP Open House

2008-01-13T00:48:00.001+08:00

Well, i wanna thank those that came down to support me as well as the SP Cheer team today. I appreciate it very much. You guys know who you are. Especially my cell group leader. Haha, despite her busy schedule she still makes time down. Haha, thanks for understanding my love language. Lol.

& also those that sends me encouragement over the MSN & SMS. Thank You! Well, today i'm not satisfied of our performance. I think we can give more to the audiences. Well, its over & our next challenge is Cheerobics!

Well, things between us has patched up. Last week was really a bad week for me & you. But i'm glad we are okay now.

Yea, i'll miss the days of the Open House. The day that i leave SP will be one of the saddest day of my life cuz i will definitely cherish the moment we spent together at the clubhouse, fellowshipping around there & playing Bridge there. The people at SP Cheer is priceless. Thank God for placing me into such a loving CCA.

The principal of SP ROCKS La! I didn't know SP's principal is so cool! Firstly, he gave us the respect by looking at our performance. Secondly, he gave us a talk after the performance which was really motivating. Thirdly, whatever we asked for, we will receive. Forthly, he agreed to send us to overseas for training if we can achieve good results in the coming year. Lastly, with him around, anything is possible. God Bless SP Cheer. Since the first day when Charis applied for the club, God's favour is already in us.

Today after the Open House i also had a great fellowship with Joel, Terry & also my mom at Marina Sqaure. Had Thai Express. The Tom Yam soup rocks la!

Its been a long time i really had a great fellowship with them le. Also, after that we proceed to Bryan's house for a simple get together and also to celebrate his birthday. Well, his condominium is beautiful! Played lots of Car Park catching, it was pretty cool. I ran the hell outta my life. Lol. Basically the time there is to fellowship more with the W459 people cuz only like 5 people from W362 were there. But his mom's hospitality to us were awesome! Anyway, happy birthday Bryan!

Also, cheap thrills! I've bought a TopMan jeans for such a low price. Cuz its a sale item. & i thought it was a good catch cuz i really need more Jeans. Next up, i've gotta buy more formal shirt. I saw one at New Urban Male, the one with many colour to choose from. I think it'd look cool on everyone. Haha.

Lastly, Joel's laughter is contagious. But i love it! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Be It Mary Or Jane, It Doesn't Matters Now. What Matters Most Is God."

Disappointed

2008-01-11T23:52:00.001+08:00

I'm kinda disappointed with this person. I'm not angry, just disappointed over the way this person treats me. Afterall, humans have feelings too. & i don't recall an incident that i've hurt this person. For unknown reasons, i'm almost like being ignored by this person.

Haha, maybe its because of stress i'm feeling so paranoid? Or maybe its real? Who cares?

At the end of the day, i've told God i've tried my best to make a difference in this person's life. I'm not gonna do anything, i'll let God do the rest because mainly i believe in you reap what you have sow. At the end of the day, i guess it was a mistake.

Its really heart-warming to see my classmates supporting me at the Open House. Its really cool! At least, this is the product of what we have sweat & bleed over the past few months of trainings. I guess the fruit of our labour is sweet! But i doubt my cell group members will go down tomorrow.

Oh yea, i have made this analysis. Out of the 5 Love Languages, Quality Time is the most difficult to please of all. & Ed Angels primary love language is Quality Time.

How do you please someone that needs Quality Time? You gotta spend time with that person right, spend quality time talking to him or her be it on the phone or meet up or on MSN. But especially when you're in City Harvest Church, Time is Money. Everyone is like so busy with church stuff, studies, work & their CCAs, so its really appreciative if someone sacrifices their precious time just to cultivate some Quality Time with me. I tell you, i'll be damn touched.

However if you don't love that person, you'll not spend Quality Time with him/her right? Every minute with this person seems like a year to you right? So people with Quality Time as their main Love Language are the most difficult to please. This is because they can really see from their point of view who cares & who doesn't by looking at that person's time spent with you.

Therefore, i felt that people with Quality Time as their primary Love Language tend to get moody & emotional most of the time because of what is running through their mind.

Lets now analyse the other 4 Love Languages which is think is so easy to please.

1) Words of Affirmation- Come on, just speak some good things about this person & this person will feel like he or she is in Heaven! For example, even if her dress suck, you say your dress is as graceful as a swan, she will be so pleased!

Compare That With Quality Time!

2) Acts of Service- Just help this person carry her laptop, bag or help them open the door & they'll feel so Loved!

Compare That With Quality Time!

3) Physical Touch- Its so easy when you know that person's primary Love Language is Physical Touch. Just give him a hug when he's down or motivate him by giving him a firm & assure touch on his shoulder would make him feel soooooooooooo Loved!

Compare That With Quality Time!

4) Gifts Receiving- All you need to do to please that person is to buy gifts & presents, be it small or expensive gifts, i don't think it matters. Its so easy to please this kind of person when you're rich. But when you're rich with loads of money, i don't think money can buy Quality Time?

Well, Compare That With Quality Time!

This is just a little analysis made by me on my way home today. Lots of thoughts ran through my mind, one of these is this.

Lastly, this world is so cold & scary. I'm so afraid to carry on my walk in life. Suicidal thoughts slowly came flooding into my minds. Nevertheless, though i'm tired, i'll carry on. I fear no evil for my God is with me. He will mould me into a better, confident & more decisive person as i go through the Ups & Downs of life. But i'm just so disappointed with people. I've learnt how to please God instead of people now. People are not worth to be pleased. But God is.

I'm so disgusted with what the devil is doing to me right now. He knows my final exams are coming next 2 weeks & he's trying to distract me over some friendship & relationship problems knowing that i'm an emotional person. All i need is your encouragement!

When you step up with courage & give me encouragement, you've made a difference in someone's life. Anyway, i proclaim tomorrow will be the best day yet in 2008 because SP Cheer is what i call Home!

Lastly, i wanna comment on 3 person. They are WeiPin, Terry Miles & James. I don't know why but when i look at them or when i just talked to them, i felt the joy of the Lord in them. It like, like that lor when you talk to them. Its like you're talking to Jesus lor. You will feel good de. Like very refreshed after that. It sounds weird. But i've only seen these kind of people in GUYS only. I never seen a girl that i'll be WOW, the joy of the Lord is in you! I wish i can attain that kind of authority in the near future. Its like you felt the peace of God when you talked to them. Awesome la! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Disappointed. So Many Dreams Unfulfilled. I Wonder If They'd Give Me A Chance To Fulfill It."

"Ditch Mary For Jane. Weeeeeeeeeeeee!"

Excite Me

2008-01-08T23:12:00.000+08:00

Wazzup peeps!

I can only use one word to describe my first week of 2008! EXCITING! Yeah, that's the word... What a beautiful word shared by Pastor Kong to start the year with... What a beautiful worship song to bang off the year with & What a beautiful cell group to kick off the year with... Haha, you know what? Just 3 days after the new year, the devil tried to hurt me by putting me back to my mood swing mode... Haha, but i ace it through afterall... Maybe Sunday was a little affected by it...

But who cares? Let's lift all our negatives stuff to God & share about the good things that happen to us with our friends & in our blog yea? That'd at least not affect someone's feeling after reading it...

Yea, last Sunday i was kinda down... I just need some encouragements from people & thank God for those in the cell group that really talk to me & understand me on that day... You guys made me felt so much better... Well, also the outing with the SP Peeps to Minds Cafe made me felt so much better with all the screaming & ecstastic fun!

But with your miracle encouragement, i can even fly up to the sky! Haha, but you won't know who you are cuz i'm a discreet guy when it comes to the matters of the heart...

What's in store for me in 2008? I'm practising guitar everyday for more than 1 hour... Around 1 hour & 15 minutes like that... I'm so determined to be a cell group guitarist soon... I hope i'll be one by the end of the year... Oh God, please make that vision of mine come true... I wanna play the best worship song in your presence! Imagine playing a worship song with Your presence so strong & every member is sweetly dwelling in your presence... What a beautiful sight! (:
But first, i've gotta get my emotions under control... Can you imagine if i can't control my emotion? One day, i get so EMO & in cell group suddenly during worship i change the worship song to My Chemical Romance's I Don't Love You or Avril Lavigne's When You're Gone... Argh! LOL.

& i'm so excited... SP Cheer first public performance in school! Its our first public performance... Wow, its been a journey... I'm so blessed to be part of this amazing family... I'm so gonna make SP Cheer the best club in the school & everyone i'm sure is part of it right? We're gonna kick Magnum Force's Asses & Crush The Aces Like A Piece Of 70 Cents Prata... Haha, you know i'm just kidding! SP & NP = Friends, Like Singapore & Malaysia! Only quarell over some trivial issues... Teehehe...

Yeah! Hope my friends & cell group members can come down to SP to support me & also to look at how close SP is to Old Changi Hospital... Some blocks la right? Especially the biz blocks... Okays, i'm so mean... Seriously, SP is such a beautiful place... So our performance will be on this coming Friday & Saturday at 12:25pm... Come down to support us @ SP Open House 2008! If we can rush all the way down to see the Dragonboaters at Singapore River a couple of Sundays ago, i don't see why we can't come down to SP to see something more entertaining than dragonboats! Ah-haha... Okays, i'm so just joking... Don't take it seriously! Weeeeee, i'm so excited! But i'm gonna promise that you guys won't regret coming down on Saturday! Haha...

On a lighter note, i want you all to visualise something! Imagine one day Hello Kitty breaks up with Dear Daniel & she got hitched with Garfield! Omg, it'll never ever happen in my wildest dream! SO RANDOM! AH-HAHAHA!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"就算牵的不是我的手, 我不真的难过"

Heart Of Confusion

2008-01-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

I just wanna forget about last Saturday!

Well, this week's been rather good... Or how should i phrase it, hmmm 65% positive, 35% negative... Hmmm, all because of you la i so negative...

Anyway, the most memorable thing in 2008 for me now is still the Old Changi Hospital visit... Haha, anyway though you may see me happily smiling on the outside, my heart's kinda confused over certain issues...

Just 3 Resolutions

1) Be the best & most committed backspot by going to every training & try to improve myself as time flies

2) Be a cell group guitarist real soon (I just finished my 1 hour self guitar practice, as i type this, my left hand's fingers hurt... Anyway, 'No Sacrifices, No Victories')

3) Experience the feeling of LOVE everyday... Yes, its that feeling you are thinking of right now

Point 1 & 2 is more like a mission to be accomplished by me, myself... Success or failure will depends on me... But point 3, haiz i tried my best already & will keep trying my best, the rest is up to you...

Its like this confused feeling, i want to see you everyday but i don't feel like seeing you when the time comes... Its a mix of irritating, painful & anxious feeling in your heart... Doctor, won't you prescribe me something?

How do i post something in my blog where this person can actually access my blog? Haha... I just felt like sharing everything out here... & how will this person feel when this person saw the affection i write for this person... So its like wow, can't even pour out la... Lol...

Anyway, today i had a great fellowship with Terry, Vernon, James, Kim & James Friend, forget her name already... Played lots of board games at Minds Cafe... I just realised i suck at games that requires quick reflexes... But i own in 'Taboo'... Haha, Kim is soooooooo uber funny... Cuz at a point of time she happens to be the person describing... So she asked, 'This character is Hello Kitty's best friend' & things like 'This thing you are guess is Mango's best friend'... Omg, the answer is more -______________-'''... For the Hello Kitty best friend, the answer is Garfield... For the Mango's best friend, the answer is *ermx*, u want me to reveal????? Okays, the answer is Kiwi!!! Oh Dear... =.='''

But it was fun! Haha, i love fellowship... How i wish i'm a full-time fellowshipper... Lol... SP Peeps, we should go Minds Cafe one day... What about fellowship after service tomorrow? Its a great fellowship today because the 3 members of W220 in W362 are there fellowshipping so it brings back those days... Hahaha...

Anyway, add me on your prayer list... I have a Marketing Research presentation on Monday... Yeah! I'm kinda nervous about it... Pray for me if you love me as a brother! (:

Just one message from you will make my day

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Give Me A Chance Will You?"

Feel Good

2008-01-03T01:33:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, just wanna share with you a song when i'm browsing through my iPod Touch on my way home... Its lyrics is very very meaningful & I believe everyone here, yes everyone here reading my blog, will have someone to dedicate this song to... Love is in the air @ Ed-McLovin.Blogspot.Com...

Never Had A Dream Come True by S Club 7

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you know

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And so my road can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

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Anyway, today i took like 20 minutes to style my hair before going out... Haha, yeah its Charis or my Bestie birthday! Haha, went to Orchard to meet the SP Cheer peeps before making our way to the chalet... We were like so lost there... Haha but nevertheless, we found that place...

Wow, the chalets in Aloha Changi is so deserted... One of the most mysterious place in Singapore... Haha, anyway we played a few rounds of Bridge before going down to BBQ... Haha, i'm so surprised Kim was there cuz she told me she's not coming... It was good fellowship today!

We then proceed to Changi Hospital... Yeah, its the ghostly place where everyone's talking about... Wha, such a long walk there... Haha, JingXian abit weak eh when she reached the entrance... Yeah, its interior is very haunted & inside is so run down... But seriously, there's nothing inside... or maybe God's with us!

Haha, we're halfway there then Kim wanted to join us... Too bad, she's too late... Lol... Or else, it'd be uber fun! Got people to scare le... Haha...

On the way home, only left me, Kim, YingJie, Raymond, Genevieve, JingXian, WeiPin & Candice... Haha, yeah we missed to last train so we took a taxi home... Me, Kim, Candice & yingJie on one cab while the rest on the other... I don't know why but after today i felt so happy! Haha, can someone please tell me why?

& yeah, Jiahui also came today... Haha, i seriously miss W220... W220 is like a comfort zone for me & many of us... Maybe its time to step out of our comfort zone & try to adapt to W362... Somehow, W362 is Love la, but too me, W220 is a family that Loves ... The more i see her, the more guilty i felt for not trying my best to bring new friends into W220!

Anyway, Happy Birthday HUIWEN! 19 years old le! Wha, another one year hit 20 years old le... When cell group leader sia? Haha...

Life is good, take care peeps!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

10 Commandments Of My Future Spouse

2008-01-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

10 Commandments Of My Future Spouse

See, i'm using the word spouse because i'm still finding out my orientation, okays, i'm just kidding! Don't take it too seriously...

Okays, why i wanted to post this? Because my friends started it... Looking at WeiPin, Candice & Raymond's blog made me felt like posting this up... But i nearly fell asleep after reading one of them so here you go, i'm making it as fun as possible for you guys to read... Ah haha...

Ten Commandments of My Future Spouse

1) Able to take my humour

- See this is a very important point... I'm a very lame person & i love to joke & i especially love girls that laugh at my joke even when i find it not funny... So this component is very important, i don't wanna have a spouse that's so serious all the time...

2) She must be shorter than me

- You know Ed Angels gets disgusted when i see girls that are taller than me... You see, I'm 1.79m so girls that are 1.8m & above really irritates me & i feel inferior to a girl that's taller than me... Imagine i talk to her must look up! Argh!

- So my ideal range is between 1.40m to 1.65m... You know why 1.65 & above can't? Because when wedding she sure wear high heels shoe de mahs then later she taller than me how sia? I don't want my relatives say 'Eee yer, why the bride taller than the groom, so sia suay can'... Lol

- Also right, not so easy to slap me when we quarell, cuz if i try to tip toe abit, the hands might not be able to touch my face... Ah-haha

3) She must LOVE GOD but to a certain extent

- Yes, she must be spiritual as in attend church & backsliding is the last thing on her mind... This point is kinda easy to understand

- But must love God to a certain extent means she must not be too holy... She cannot every line she speaks to me also got words like Praise The Lord, Hallelujah, Amen... No No No, & i'm serious, i know these kind of girls, but i don't wanna name them... Its so irritating you know... Every little thing also Hallelujah, Praise The Lord... And for example, say grace for 1 hour & speak in tongues for 75% of the day at home... Okays, i'm exaggerating abit here but i know there are people like these...

4) Long Hair

- Yeah, this is kinda important... Most of my SP friends know about it too... Short hair like boys la, i don't like... See, even boys are now keeping long hairs... At least from shoulder length & below... Haha...

5) She must weigh LESS THAN 60kg

- I don't wanna explain why! But i will give u guys a pratical example... On a humid day, we are tracking on of the hills in Ubin Island... Then suddenly she sprain her leg & can't walk... & there's no one to help, no ambulances & etc... How? You need to shoulder sit her already right? So anything more than 60kg will break my shoulder so yea, hope u understand my example...

6) She must be Encouraging

- Able to encourage me for example when i'm emotional... Able to speak words of affirmation into my life

- As my primary love language is Quality Time, she must make alot of time to spend with me... I think the more time we spent together, the more we will know each other & we will know how to accomodate each other when we quarell

7) Sense of Fashionable Dressing

- Hmmm, this aspect not so important for me but her dress sense must be presentable & she must not wear too revealing la... Not good, later wardrobe malfunction how? & also don't wear until so conservative la, for example wear Qi Pao to visit parents on Chinese New Year

(Yes, i'm exagerrating my elaborations)

8) Must not be too Highly Maintenance

- Weekly spa treatment, haircut at Monsoon, everyday go nail shop & change the colour of the toe nails, buy groceries at Takashimaya when our house is at Woodlands, have daily afternoon teas at Swensen's

- I mean i don't mind paying but not everyday right? That's abit too much... She must also work la, don't tell me stay at home everyday meh? Can hire maid to look after baby one mahs, the most the maid will throw the baby down the dustbin chute only mahs... Oops!

9) Must able to accept me for who I am

- I hope my future spouse loves me for who i am

- I get extraordinarily disappointed if one day se comes to tells me she loves me becuase of my money, my cars or etc etc... It'd be extremly heart wrenching...

10) She must SMILE & SMILE & SMILE!

- I like girls that smile & smile despite the situation she's going through... & her smile must be sweet... Cannot like smile right, wha got mosquito fly out of her mouth ah...

Hope I've made your day! I'm just trying to make this as interesting as possible... Don't want you guys to fall asleep after reading this... However, if you're a girl & you find it offending after reading what I've wrote, then YOU'RE NOT THE ONE FOR ME!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"You're The One That I Want"

Flashback '07

2008-01-01T14:53:00.001+08:00

Here are also some of the significant events that happen to me in 2007... Ah-haha, just like the flashback of what I've done in 2007... I repeat myself again, 2007 is not a very good year for me so i seriously can't wait for 2008 & i thank God 2008 is here...

January:
- Just another emotional period in my life
- Still remember i was sick for my Fundamentals of Marketing exam
- Speedway yea! That's one of the significant w220 outing i can remember in 2007

February:
- The most unhappening month in 2007
- Only remember i went out with a group of boys & girls to Settler's cafe on Valentine's Day

March:
- The one that brought me to church left the cell group & that's the turning point for me in 2007
- I thought life is gonna suck until a new group of friends came along (The Parade of Schools people) From there, i've made friendships with people like WeiPin, Candice, Terri, Raymond & etc
- This is also the month where W220 combine with W362

April:
- Benny Hinn's conference, haha i was just an audience in there
- That month i'm just happily enjoying the Parade of Schools training (The SMU days, haha)
- From this month, i still remember i always disappear after service for fellowship with my Parade of Schools friends
- Yeah, my year 2 in poly has started too & i've been in the same class with ChunKit

May:
- Its all about preparing for our Parade of Schools performance
- Still remember last day of May is our performance

June:
- Emerge 2007! & probably the last Emerge!
- We had so many fellowships after Emerge
- My birthday! Haha, i invited the POS people but didn't invite the cell group (Oops!)

July:
- Also one of the unsignificant month, i guess i've been studying for my mid-semester exam
- The vision to start a cheerleading club in our school started

August:
- SP Cheerleading Club has been approved by the CCA president in SP
- Festival of Praise! I had a great time there with my cell group members
- Our POS chalet at Pasir Ris

September:
- The start of SP Cheer
- From there, those in the club really forged a strong friendship among each other, its just like my 2nd family
- That's the time i learned how to play Bridge

October:
- Hey Gorgeous came & me & WeiPin appeared on TV together thanks to Terri & Charis
- New people also start to come into SPC
- Its also Terri's birthday so we stay over at the chalet

November:
- My cell group has multiplied & i'm so happy to be multiplied into the cell group i wanna go
- I felt so refreshed during that month

December:
- SP Cheer Thanksgiving was a blast
- Christmas wasn't that great because i was sick throughout
- Lots of people in SP Cheer starts to confess who they love
- New Year's Eve was probably the coolest day in December
- December is the best month in 2007 in my opinion

Nah, i don't think its so happening right in 2007? Lol, 2008 is my time... My time has come!

On the lighter note, throughout 2007 i've had really some good fellowship with some people in my cell group & also my SP Cheer friends... You guys are such a fun bunch of people to be with & i really appreciate it... You guys have made my 2007 a better year to live in... Of cuz there are still many secrets that happen to me during 2007 which i will not share becuase this is a public blog! Ah hahaha!

2007 was more of a EMOTIONAL HEALING year for me... Cuz 2006 is a really EMO year, so the first few months of 2007 was really all about emotional healing... Looking back, its was pretty cool... Thnks Fr The Mmrs 2007!

I'll post something else later so remember to tune in to Ed-McLovin.Blogspot.Com regularly!

Agape ♥,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I ♥ You"

A Fresh Start

2008-01-01T02:22:00.001+08:00

Wow, sometimes i should be contented with life... I really thank God for the friends that celebrate New Year's Eve with me... I should really be thankful that i've so many friends to go to the countdown with & i thought this should be enough, i shouldn't ask God for more... It will come naturally! (:

Anyway, today's fellowship & also the January 1st 2008 is awesome... Its one of the best i've had in years... Cuz i've got the opportunity to fellowship with so many people... See, i can fellowship with my cell group member, ex-cell group member, my SP Cheer peeps, my cell group leader & also Kim before meeting them... Wow, i've been fortunate to fellowship with them all in one day & some together... Haha...

So my journey's today is like this... I left home around 3+ to meet Kim first to get something... Lol, she so so so late, but haha i guess my patience have improved... She's late for like 30 minutes... Lol... Anyway, went to Ben & Jerry for some ice-cream... But its kinda expensive dining there, 2 person can cost $27... Do u think its worth it? Lol, haha but i love their Banana ice-cream... Something like that la...

Then we proceed to Marina Square to buy gifts & yea after that Jeremiah, Bryan & blah blah blah arrived... Had Yoshinoya for dinner, hey their Chicken Teriyaki is pretty cool... Lol, met my SP Cheer friends at Esplanade there then we proceed to the Esplanade Bridge there to fellowship & watch the fireworks...

Ah haha, so fun, we played Animal Game, haha its great to fellowship together with 2 groups of people... But Zhihao is so irritating... Lol, the fireworks was so-so cuz i saw better ones... Haha, but its more of the fellowship i guess... WeiPin keeps wow-ing when the fireworks start... Its so hilarious man! Lol...

After the whole thing, it was like a war zone... Me & Kim went off with my SP Cheer friends because we lost contact with our cell group members... Ah haha, the telephone connection is jammed... But thank God we held one another & managed to brave out the congested area... Thank God we were at the side of the bridge or else i guess it'd take years for us to get out of there... Lol...

Then we walked & walked & walked all the way to Clarke Quay... Lol, from there we said bye to our SP Cheer friends & went home... Haha, i have been spending alot le, i brought out like $150 & i left $40 in my wallet... Lol, but i felt good...

Yeah, its one of my best New Year's Eve... Cuz its so meaningful! Lol...

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

I love your sweet smile & that shocked expression when i surprised you with things... It just melts my heart into caramel...

At the end of the day, yes it was Love... Though the pride of my mouth can't admit it, my heart says otherwise...

If that is Love, i will Give & Give & Give & expect nothing in return cuz that's what Love is all about!

What's Your Love Language?

2007-12-31T12:13:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Words of Affirmation:		8
Physical Touch:		5
Receiving Gifts:		4
Acts of Service:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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Love Covers All Sin

2007-12-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, do you like my background song? Teehehe, its so sweet right! Lol, actually its a long ago song but then suddenly one day Kim asked me to send her this song then i just listen to it myself again & wow, i'm so in love with this song... Ah haha... Okays, you have no chance to put this song on your blog le... Lol...

Anyway, today woke up at 7:30am, suddenly kinda excited about going to church then train hop with Kim at Outram Park to Boon Lay... Wow, its really bored if you have the whole journey to yourself... Then met Cheryl at the bus interchange & we proceed to our Jurong West church... Wha, bus number 179's frequency is damn long... Haha, we waited for like around 20 minutes... I think Expo's much cooler cuz you don't need to change a bus... Haha... But i heard that there are speculations that Jurong West service may start at 9:30am & Expo at 12pm in the future... Oh God, don't let this happen man!

Service was great! Haha, praise & worship was power today... Lol, anyway i wasn't sitting at the side one... Its because i saw someone came so i gave up my seat for him to seat beside her then i moved to the side to sit with Kim... Haha, guess some people know what i'm talking about... Hahaha! Its so funny, but my gesture was good...

After service we proceed to Jurong Point for lunch... Haha, its been a long time i last crap so much with Terry... Lol, ever since he went to army, seldom have time to fellowship with him le... Anyway after that, we proceed to Derrick's house for BBQ... Haha, so cool he invited us there... But it was at Yishun, haha, from Boon Lay to Yishun... On the train ride, i suddenly got so dizzy but thank God for my iPod Touch & thanks Kim for keeping changing the song on my iPod... It made me even more dizzy but i just didn't say it... Lol... No, i'm not angry with you... Hahaha!

BBQ was pretty cool but 'Risk' is the lamest boardgame i've ever played... Vernon smart sia, knowing its boring, he found a way out by quitting the game... Then, i just tried to lose my game to avoid staying in that game... Lol... Anyway, its been a long time since i last had a great & REAL fellowship with the cell group le... Okays, the REAL part only SP Cheer people knows what i'm talking about...

That's all for today... This may be my last post for 2007! Thnks Fr Th Mmrs 2007, & Hello 2008! 2008 will be the best year yet for US! (:

By ending off, here's the lyrics of my background song that i wanna dedicate to everything & especially _____.

Only Love by Trademark

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do That's something only love can do

Agape,
Ed Angels

Thnks Fr Th Felwshp

2007-12-28T01:29:00.000+08:00

Today is one of the best day in 2007... Haha, yea its the best day cuz so many happy things happen...

Firstly, i went to training... Training was pretty cool, its more about unity i guess... Being the backspot in WenQing & YiYu's tower is uber cool! They are uber uber stable & their pop is just nice...

Then went down to Marina Sqaure to fellowship with Kim & XiaoLing... Haha, XiaoLing is my ex cell group member, just drop by to fellowship with us... Yea, cheer up sister, hope you're reading this, everything's gonna be alright! (Trust me, if not i owe you 10 movie treats alright?)

Anyway, i felt so happy because today i've been blessing on food & movie on people... I feel that December is a time of giving & also enjoying after 11 months of hard work during the year... So yea, really, try blessing someone & you will feel the joy... Its better to bless than to be blessed... You reap what you sow = You will be bless by what you have blessed... I believe in this, this is randomly created by Ed Angels... Ah-haha...

& thanks Kim for blessing me the snack at the cinema... Haha, watched National Treasure today... The starting part is kinda bored & it gets really interesting after 20 minutes... The plot is brilliant... Nicolas Cage can act, seriously this old dude can act! Its more like a one-man show... Anyway, me & Kim been coughing non-stop throughout the movie, guess we havent recovered from our cough yet... I once had this bad cough that i had to ran out to the toilet to cough out loudly! Hey, COUGH OUT LOUDLY = COL... Lol!!!

Then we proceed to Esplanade after the movie... Sat down there & chill, talk about W220... Well, its kinda emotional cuz i think we really took our cell group leader for granted... I dare proclaim she's one of the best cell group leader... Its because of us that W220 collapse... But anyway, its over & i feel its really good to talk & share it out then keep it inside... Sometimes, fellowship is not about going out to eat & watch movies & stay happy, its also about knowing each other more & sharing what one heart feels... So i thought it was an awesome fellowship today...

The feeling of playing some smooth music along the beautiful skyline of Singapore in Esplanade is awesome! Anyway, i'm so happy for 2 person today... They had a breakthrough each... One good & one bad... Lol. For Charis, i'm so happy that she can pop twist so gracefully! LOL! & for Kim, you've had a breakthrough in drinking _________. Oh My, how does it taste like?

Its a long post but bear with it... I'm so happy! Let's end 2007 with a blast yea? Life's sweet, don't dwell on your bitterness! Sorry, i can symphatize with you reading this... I can feel this person's heartache & jealousy...

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Okays, after so much consideration, i'll forget about (ditch) Jane cuz she's just the one i'm looking for!"

Thanksgiving

2007-12-27T00:28:00.000+08:00

Ah haha, its been another wonderful day after 4 days of sickness though i'm still abit unwell now... Besides Jesus, SPC heals my sickness... Haha, i felt so alive during the Thanksgiving Party... The minute they arrived, the pain in my stomach gone, yea i had a lil of stomachache today...

The award time was the most hilarious... Omg, its like so cell group style... Lol, & obviously WeiPin is trying to be like one... Lol... & the winners are:

Transformer- YiYu
Most Faithful- Candice
Most Courageous- Genevieve
Limewire- JingXian
Most Winsome- ZhiHao
Most Encouraging- Kaytee
Mr. SP Cheer- WenQing
Miss SP Cheer- Terri

& a surprised award called the Most Gung Ho was presented to Raymond...

& also congrats to myself for winning the Most Initiative award... Ah-haha, i was wondering who will vote for me & how much vote did i won by... Lol, i guess i'll be the last person to win this if i'm with my cell group... Anyway, appreciation cell group is coming up & i'm so stressed up, i'm like in charge of finding the music, playing the music, finding a CD player, bring that CD player to that place & lastly in charge of the food too... Lol, i'm wondering how do i manage to carry so many stuff there... Please, i'll pay to take taxi if i'm late for training but not to Bukit Timah, ah-haha, so random... Haha, hope my cell group members is reading this right now... But if there's a will, there's a way... I'm still finding my will, ah-haha...

Send My Love To The DanceFloor,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Ed Angels X'mas Message

2007-12-25T16:57:00.000+08:00

Ed Angels' X'mas Message

Life's all about making choices... If you can't make a choice, you will fall into a dilemma... Yes, making choice is hard, very hard... You tend to hurt one party if you chooses the other... Life's sucks if someone's hurt...

Its something like that... You have a date with Mary but you'd prefer to go out with Jane mainly because of the fact that she's better to get along with... & though you promised Mary you will go out with her, your heart's definitely with & thinking of Jane even though you're with Mary... Everyone knows that you're politically right to go out with Mary because you have promised her but such things doesn't have right or wrong yea? Its about making choices & the choices you make will either hurt one of the party...

So the question is would you rather take the hurt or hurt someone? Haha, yea i know Mary + Jane = MaryJane, yea that's a song from Click Five...

If you make choices, someone will get hurt, if you don't make choices, you youself will fall into a dilemma...

Dilemma is like:

-Saving Your Mom in Pacific Ocean or Your Girlfriend in Atlantic Ocean

-A Girl Choosing Between A Louis Vuitton or a YSL Bag

-Asking Ed Angels Whether Panic at the Disco or Fall Out Boy Is Better

-Choosing Between Going Out With Jesus Christ For One Day or Being The Lead Singer For The Click Five

-Choosing Between Your MSN or iPod Touch

-Is Like Going To McDonald's Thinking Whether Should I Or Should I Not Add Pickles On My Big Mac

A New Type Of Dilemma

Triple Dilemma is like:

Choosing To Go Out With Your Cell Group Members, SP Cheer Friends or My Family...

Dilemma
di·lem·ma[di-lem-uh]
–noun
1. a situation requiring a choice between equally undesirable alternatives.
2. any difficult or perplexing situation or problem.

Anyway i had great fellowship with the cell group especially Kim ytd... Lol, it was fun! & 2 years ago when i received Christ, Preecha (yea, its a Thai name) accompanied me down to pray for my salvation... 2 years later at Jurong West, i accompanied him down to pray for his salvation... SO COOL! (:

& seriously, Valerie's X'mas present is still with me & Kim (cough cough) _______________________________ (fill this in yourself)

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"What A Beautiful Wedding! What A Beautiful Wedding!" Says A Bridesmaid To A Waiter.
"Oh Yes, But What A Shame, What A Shame The Poor Groom's Bride Is A Whore."

Random Post

2007-12-23T22:27:00.000+08:00

"ED ANGELS": Send My Love To The Dance Floor. says:
ANYWAY

"ED ANGELS": Send My Love To The Dance Floor. says:
I REALISED SOMETHING

`= CeLeste =` `I Love You Because You First Love Me. <3 says:
what thing

"ED ANGELS": Send My Love To The Dance Floor. says:
WHENEVER I TALK TO YOU ON MSN I'LL HAVE BLESSINGS!

`= CeLeste =` `I Love You Because You First Love Me. <3 says:
serious or not.

`= CeLeste =` `I Love You Because You First Love Me. <3 says:
don anyhow.

"ED ANGELS": Send My Love To The Dance Floor. says:
THAT DAY MY UNCLE GAVE ME $30 right?

"ED ANGELS": Send My Love To The Dance Floor. says:
TODAY BERNARD's DAD GAVE ME $50 FOR CHRISTMAS

`= CeLeste =` `I Love You Because You First Love Me. <3 says:
wha!

"ED ANGELS": Send My Love To The Dance Floor. says:
he say this is for you, go buy smth u like

"ED ANGELS": Send My Love To The Dance Floor. says:
NEXT TIME KEEP TALKING TO ME

`= CeLeste =` `I Love You Because You First Love Me. <3 says:
...

"ED ANGELS": Send My Love To The Dance Floor. says:
I WILL TITHE 10% TO YOU! & 10% TO GOD!

`= CeLeste =` `I Love You Because You First Love Me. <3 says:
hahaz

`= CeLeste =` `I Love You Because You First Love Me. <3 says:
sorry ar. im not ur God.

"ED ANGELS": Send My Love To The Dance Floor. says:
i got say i want tithe to you meh? BHB

Cupid Chokehold

2007-12-23T13:41:00.000+08:00

I thought Gym Class Heroes song was crap... Just listening & singing along to its melodies & i'm satisfied... But was browsing through their lyrics & boy, there's meaning to its song... Take a look at the song below... Its called 'Cupid's Chokehold' or some people called it 'Take A Look At My Girlfriend'... It Rocks!

Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da
Ba ba da da

Take a look at my girlfriend
She's the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

It's been some time since we last spoke
This is gonna sound like a bad joke
But momma I fell in love again
It's safe to say I have a new girlfriend

And I know it sounds so old
But cupid got me in a chokehold
And I'm afraid I might give in
Towels on the mat my white flag is wavin'

I mean she even cooks me pancakes
And Alka Seltzer when my tummy aches
If that ain't love then I don't know what love is

We even got a secret handshake
And she loves the music that my band makes
I know I'm young but if I had to choose her or the sun
I'd be one nocturnal son of a gun

It's been awhile since we talked last and I'm tryin' hard not to talk fast
But dad I'm finally thinkin' I may have found the one
Type of girl that will make you way proud of your son

And I know you heard the last song about the girls that didn't last long
But I promise this is on a whole new plane
I can tell by the way she says my name (ba ba da da)

I love it when she calls my phone
She even got her very own ringtone
If that ain't love then I don't know what love is (ba ba da da)

It's gonna be a long drive home but I know as soon as I arrive home
And I open the door take off my coat and throw my bag on the floor
She'll be back into my arms once more for sure

She's got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue
I'm not done
She's got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn't stop there
Man I swear
She's got porcelain skin of course she's a ten
And now she's even got her own song
But movin' on
She's got the cutest laugh I ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
Not sayin' one word
And I would still cherish every moment
And when I start to build my future she's the main component
Call it dumb call it luck call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere I go I keep her picture in my wallet like here

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I Know I'm Young But If I Had To Choose Her Or The Sun, I'd Be One Nocturnal Son Of A Gun."

Saturday Evening Fever @ Expo

2007-12-22T22:43:00.001+08:00

Oh dear, i'm terribly sick today... Was so jaded during service, my temperature hit 39 degree this evening, now its 38.3 degree... Yeah, its all because of you... I shouldn't have kissed you yesterday if i knew you had flu... Lol.

But nevertheless, i went on to fellowship with my cell group after service... Actually they suggested Tampines Mall so i intended not to go then they changed to Marina Sqaure... Of cuz ON la! I was feeling sick throughout today & thank God for my iPod Touch to keep me accompany... Also, thanks to my cell group members that actually care for me, asking me are you alright & giving me advice on curing the fever... Love ya people!

But seriously i felt the drama team has lost its touch... Last year's Christmas drama was so funny & touching that i cried... However, this year's one is like so boring... Lol, in my opinion la but anyway, still great job to the actors & actresses... I think Andrea, the Mr. Chang & Adrian stands out the most...

Alright, i'm gonna rest now... Seeya guys & girls! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Rant

2007-12-21T19:50:00.000+08:00

This post goes out to you!

You're such a whore in my eyes... Always going for cheap thrills... Don't you know that what we always did is just to show u some 10 cent respect... I don't give a damn for your ******-******* dollar signs...

Freedom belongs to everyone, it doesn't belong to you only... So please show me some ******* respect before you talk to me... I'm gonna make life hard for you now... What do you come to church for? To flirt around? To speak some devil's word into someone's life? To stop someone from baptizing? & so many more... Its seldom me behaving like a Normal Technical student ranting on their blogs...

Lastly, since young i'm a spoilt child... I'll get whatever I want when i ask for whatever i want, whatever i piss & moan for, i will get whatever i piss & moan for, whatever i cry for, i will get whatever i cry for... This time, the same freaking principle applies... I will not step a single step back... That's me! Accept me for who i am if you can... Defeat doesn't exist in my dictionary only words like 'Backlash' do... I'm almost certain you will not get what you want, but i will get a hold of what i want...

Its an ******* ugly day today!

You spoilt a beautiful day... I'm suppose to meet the SPC Angels today for some crazy times... What a Christmas!

Yay! So what i have a 16GB iPod Touch, the next day my phone's spoilt... What the hell! Its must be the ******-******* devil...It just spoils for no reason... I can't read SMS-es now, all i can do is listen to calls because i can only feel the vibration... Take note, i'm using my old Nokia phone... That spoilt phone is like so ******* dead... It spoils my day! First all 3 of my Creative Mp3, PSP screen & Nokia 7370 spoils in a week... Then i got this Samsung shitty phone then now its spoilt? Will the next casualty be my iPod Touch? Hell yea, then i'll be damned by my parents...

Okays good, how do i invite my friend to church? So Sway! Hearing worship songs won't help me anyway! Okays, Sorry to Raymond, WeiPin, Genevieve, Candice & ZhiHao & whoever's there today... Yea cuz i flew aeroplane to you guys actually said i wanna come right but I've really got something urgent on...

Sympathetic Serenade,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Where Is God In Such Times Of Trouble?"

You should know that my vocabulary is not so limited for regular visitors coming to my blog... Seriously sometimes its not about the vocab, its about your emotions that tempt you to use such words becuz there's no more venomous/poisonous words you can ever think of... Don't expect me to use words like 'Atrocious'

Let It All Out

2007-12-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

Wow!

Its been a long time i last blogged & now its offically holiday! Weeeee, life's sweet...

Let me start off, friday i went to Samantha's 21st birthday bash with Vernon & it was a blast... It was so unexpected, we thought its just a simple BBQ but instead, its a event held in a restaurant's function room... Its pretty cool to hold a party there... Thank God i'm in my formal wear as i had a presentation earlier on that day...

Saturday was cell group... Haha, cell group was a little like a mini prayer meeting... It was overall great, then went down to Orchard to fellowship with Charis, Raymond, Zhihao & WeiPin... It was great to hang around the streets of Orchard during the Christmas season... Haha, but sadly i don't really think many people will know Jesus is the reason for the season... But anyway, great day! Saw my cell group members there too...

Sunday was service... Wow, we sat at the first forth row... Haha, Raymond said the camera kept filming me during praise & worship... Ah-haha, i dislike those cameramen man! They're so annoying! Lol. Then proceed to Vivo City to have dinner with Genevieve, Clarence, Candice, Raymond & ZhiHao... The Thai Express curry soft shell crab looks like someone vommitted if you mess it up... So gross! Then went back again to Plaza Sing & Paradiz Centre that stretch to play pool... Third time playing, yea i suck at it... After that, don't know why so emotional... Lol, oh yea, Man Utd beat Liverpool!

Today was awesome! Met HuiLi to do marketing research project in the morning then Dexter joined us shortly after... Yea, its a priviledge to be in the same group with them... Then, had some cheerleading... When it all ends, its already 6pm... Went down to Plaza Sing again with the usual SP Cheer people for dinner then actually wanted to watch a movie but then decided to chill out at Ben & Jerry... The brownie fudge is pretty awesome... I love its sweetness! Lol... So the fun part was playing 'Truth or Dare'... Ah-haha, i'll not expose what you guys did just now... Haha, but aiyo shouldn't ask me who i like in SPC, its really a difficult question to answer... Lol!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"I Only Want Sympathy In The Form Of You Crawling Into Bed With Me."

"She then told me to Dance Dance Cuz That's How Misery Love Me."

Nothing Much To Say

2007-12-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

Wow! 2 more days & its holidays! Definitely, be it what happens to our presentation tomorrow, my capacity this week is definitely stretched... I have a CA paper plus 2 presentations all done in this week... I'm glad i've done my preparation for the presentation slides & its just one more day!

Anyway, today at Cheerleading training is awesome… I thought I’ll just be a spotter today, you know catching people when they fall, but instead I’m the backspot for Raymond’s tower as he, Chen Cheng, Zhihao, Rebecca & Genevieve are there only today… So few people hur?

I thought today’s training was very fruitful! I’ve got to sharpen my backspotting for 2nd, 3rd elevation & pop twist… One thing I’ve to admit, doing full liberty with Raymond & Chen Cheng is the best feeling I can get… They are so stable! & also, I can reach higher for the flyers leg to provide more stability in the tower… Rock on, Cheerleading!

Seriously, today’s my first time backspotting Rebecca, though not as daring as Genevieve, I think she’s got the potential… Haha, as a backspot, you can really feel the flyer’s momentum & I thought hers was good… & great fellowship at KFC too…

Anyway, I’m gonna sleep soon… Tomorrow’s presentation at 8am & its gonna be over… Life’s good!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Girl, You're Making Me Insane."

When I'm With You

2007-12-12T00:02:00.000+08:00

"When I'm With You" by Faber Drive

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I’d try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me to
It’s been two years to the day
Half the time I’ve been away
I know I’m not there enough but that’s gonna change
Cause I’m coming back
To show you that I’m keeping the promise I made

When I’m with you I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you

Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
Cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
Yeah

The lyrics are so meaningful... Yeah! Nice Song! But it feels so meaningless to me, so empty... Life's good, school's sucks, love's dead...

Just get away from me!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Awaken, she replied, I Don't Know What's That Mesmerizing Stare For?"

Schl Srsly Scuks

2007-12-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

School seriously sucks! But Cheerleading saves the day... Dammit! School is so Lame!

The Business Development 'matchmaking' thingy is so chaotic... The lecturers are so hecked care in SP... i seriously miss my secondary school, everyone is so loving there, like SP Cheer...

Anyway, i'm likely to be in JingXian's group for my Final Year Project... Didn't realised that the group has no guys in it... Will they disband the group? I doubt so.

My calendar's getting interesting... Christmas is coming! SP Cheer Thanksgivng is coming! 2008 is coming! Exams are coming after that! Chinese New Year is coming! ITP is coming! After that, till June, my birthday is coming! Life's good!

I guess i'm adapting well to being a backspot... In fact, i'm enjoying every minute of it... Thank God for the Height! Weeeeeeeeee! Hopefully, i will be part of the SP team that will represent SP in next year's Cheerobics...

If you asked me to summarise 2007 in a paragraph... I'd say its a awful year... But even every awful year, there's some good things... & the good things are the SP CHC friends i have known over the Parade of Schools days & also the SP Cheer now... I thought things are in shatters but then came these angelic people into my lives...

Lastly, i realised something... When i was just saved 2 years ago, i remembered i was so on fire for God... I still remembered i was nursing a fever one sunday morning & that week was Delirious? coming to Singapore (Hey noobies, that question mark is not a typo error, its part of the band's name), my forehead was scorching hot but i forced myself to go for the service... Thinking of the present, sometimes i just had a bad stomachache & i've got no motivation to go to service...

Oh, this is what i've become now... God bless everyone, Seeya soon...

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Every Night I Dreamt Of You Asking Me The Same Question Time & Time Again, Walking In The Streets Of SP."

"& My Reply Was No, I Don't Love Her."

"Don't You Still Can't Get It?"

"I Replied, What's That Mesmerizing Stare For?"

"Then I Woke Up Without Finding The Answers."

The Future Is In Your Hand

2007-12-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

What Do I Wanna Achieve?

By 2007- I want a Nokia N81 8GB before Christmas

By 2008- I want an Ipod Touch or an Iphone, be part of SP Cheerobics team & get my emotions in control

By 2009- I wanna graduate poly with a GPA of 3.0 & above, & i think i'm ready to have a girlfriend

By 2010- I want to EARN my first car (my mom can bless me right? Nah, just kidding) & do well in Army, be some kind of top post guy

By 2011- That's the year i'll probably be ORD, I'll plan for my University education

By 2013/14- Hopefully i'll be getting a Degree in Business Studies & start working, & also, hopefully Singapore will get into 2014 World Cup

By 2015- I wanna earn my first million (okays, if million can't, at least three quarter of a million) & visit Las Vegas using the money i've earned

By 2016/17- When everything's stable, Get Married with your girlfriend? Rent a temporary house

By 2018- Hopefully, buy a seaside villa

By 2019- Buy my parents a condominium apartment

By 2020- So by 2020, Tune in to Ed-McLovin.Blogspot.Com for the second part of my life!

Of cuz, out of all that, there's so many dreams unfulfilled... I know its unrealistic now though God & the pastors will still say its possible... See, i used to dream of being a popstar, being in a band & getting nominated for some awards... Fame is so damn important in my dictionary a few years ago... Now i know this dream of mine is as good as over... How can i ever get famous? Lol...

Everyone has a dream, what's your dream? Come share with me. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Piece Of Crap

2007-12-08T13:56:00.000+08:00

love is in the air. says:
u nv attend cg meh?

love is in the air. says:
y onli passfood?

"ED ANGELS": Hey There Delilah Is My Song Of The Year. says:
CG meeting is a movie outreach mahs

love is in the air. says:
lolx

"ED ANGELS": Hey There Delilah Is My Song Of The Year. says:
so i'm e food IC

love is in the air. says:
ohh

"ED ANGELS": Hey There Delilah Is My Song Of The Year. says:
pass food come back le

love is in the air. says:
means they watching

love is in the air. says:
movie at tt hse?

"ED ANGELS": Hey There Delilah Is My Song Of The Year. says:
yea

love is in the air. says:
haha u nv join them to watch movie?

"ED ANGELS": Hey There Delilah Is My Song Of The Year. says:
3 movies ah

"ED ANGELS": Hey There Delilah Is My Song Of The Year. says:
so LAME can?

"ED ANGELS": Hey There Delilah Is My Song Of The Year. says:
& i have a cousin's bday party

"ED ANGELS": Hey There Delilah Is My Song Of The Year. says:
need to help out

"ED ANGELS": Hey There Delilah Is My Song Of The Year. says:
if not, i'll be at the house watching some movies broadcasted on e TV

After thinking through on the way home, i thought to myself, is it worth it?Is bringing just the food there to the cell group's movie marathon worth it? I spend the whole morning buying the stuffs & helping out with my mom to prepare the food... Somehow i felt its so Lame... Just bring the food from my Serangoon Garden house all the way to Bukit Merah & then back there...

Anyway, i'm doing all this for God... God still love... I mean i don't like to compare but if i compare my previous cell group & this cell group... There's so much difference, seriously i felt so loved in my previous cell group... My first day there i'm already being touched by everyone's sincerity... Though yea we sucked at bringing & integrating new friends, i think its really cruel to disband us with another cell group... From then on, around 40% of the people stopped coming & my spiritual level has also dipped...

I regretted not trying my best to bring friends... I think during that period, we have aken for granted our CGL kindness... Yeah, we are all guilty of the same things...

This cell group i'm in, i guess i'm one of the youngest besides Kim, ChoonHui & Yvette... I'm only 18 years old man, i felt so hard to connect with the older people in the cell group, those working ones... Perhaps, i'm more of the lame kinds, maybe they can't take my jokes... I can't be serious man! I'm not born serious, i'm very FUN to be with...

I seriously lost motivation in the cell group... & i don't mind blogging here becuz i know only 1 or 2 people in the cell group reading my blog & i'm sorry if it hurts you reading this... As far as i'm concerned, only the SP Cheer people cares... I can't wait for tomorrow's fellowship with you guys...

SP Cheer Clan
Weipin's the joker
Raymond's the brother i can talk to
ZhiHao's the Mr. Nice Guy
Joshua's the one we can make fun of his hair
Charis' my Bestie
Candice's the sunshine girl everyone loves to talk to
Isaac's sometimes also a joker
Genevieve's the quiet one but is fun to be with & play 'Bridge' with
Terri's the star flyer everyone loves to fly since the POS days
Chen Cheng's the man made of steel

& the list goes on & on...

& yea, what about me? __________________________________ (I'll leave this blank for you guys to fill up)

Take note, i still know you care if you read my blog & tag... Not everyone doesn't care i mean... Out of the 20 plus people, i still know one or two or maybe three still cares & that person is you reading this. Thanks for Daniel & YuZhen for appreciating what i've did. (:

God Bless everyone, have an awesome saturday! I'll be tuning in to the live match between Singapore and Malaysia later in the afternoon... SEA Games rocks! I'm rallying behind the Young Lions to get through to the next round... Own Malaysia will you? Lol.

Oh my, i'm so busy to realised my 2nd year annversary in church has passed... Dec 4 2005! Weeee! (:

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

"Cross My Heart, Hope You Die."

Back To Blogging

2007-12-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

Sorry, i was so busy the last few days till i had no time to blog... Life's still as cool as ever...

Today was a pretty cool day too... Went to school for 1 hour lecture before going to The Cathay to meet my family for lunch at a Chinese restaurant... Food was pretty well presented but the portion is just a little small... Nevertheless, it was great!

After that, i proceed to City Hall to meet Kim, Kelly & YuPing... Yeah, was kinda tired already as i'm already out for half a day... Nothing much though, we just had a simple outing at Long John Silver's... Seriously, i'm so sick (in Mandarin, its called 'Ni') of LJS... The chicken combo is so disgusting that i only finished 1 piece of that chicken...

Talking about Fast Food, here's my top 5 favourite now:
1) McDonald's
2) Carl's Jr.
3) Subway
4) Mos Burger
5) KFC

Sorry LJS & Burger King, i think these 2 fast food chain sucks...

If Pizza Hut's considered fast food then KFC is out... Lol...

Okays, so we just walked around the streets of Marina & Suntec... Yeah, we had Donut Factory's donut... Weeeee, the queue is getting shorter & shorter... I have studied Economics and i can see that donuts is at it 'recession' stage... Its product life cycle is gonna be over... Its time for Donut Factory to come up with new ideas... Though i think they still earn big profits... Hahaha... Weeee, Business rocks!

Saw my secondary school classmate, Lennon... Lol, but going with 3 girls, i felt abit left out cuz the topic to talk is so different... The guys in the cell group all couldn't make it & Daniel was still working even though he says he could make it... Lol...

Okays, stop teasing me about _ _ _ _ _ _ _ & _ _ _ _ _ _!!! (:

Christmas is coming, but i have a burden! How to buy Christmas present for all my friends? Oh My!

Agape,
Ed Angels, xoxo

Enchanted By You

2007-12-05T08:54:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, i'm here in school now... Yea, just reached... A 8am lesson reaching at 8:50am... Cool hur? & now i'm here blogging... Lol...

Anyway, school sucks, if there weren't for cheerleading, i'll be considering changing school... Lol...

Yesterday went to watch Enchanted with WeiPin, Raymond, ZhiHao, Joshua & Terri... Its a pretty cool show... Haha, those happily ever after kind of shows... Haha, i guess Disney still havent lost their magical touch in these kinds of movies... Anyway, this is a show you gotta watch... After watching it, you can feel that love is in the air... Lol...

Its pretty cool to watch movies at Orchard Cineleisure... Haha, Cathay's my favourite cineplex now... Thnks Fr Th FELWSHP guys!

Yeah, this week is gonna be pack...

Today- Cheerleading + Going Home To Do Report
Thursday- Cheerleading Training
Friday- Outing with Kim & friends (Anyone wanna come along? Please tag me)
Saturday- Cell Group Movie Marathon

I'll post some beautiful songs up on my next post. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels xoxo

Just So You Know

2007-12-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

After that hit in the head, i'm been having bad headaches, frequent headaches... Becuz of that i even missed one beautiful sunday morning church service, skipped lots of 8am lesson because of the morning pain... No, it ain't coincidence, i know its that hit you gave me 1 month ago... My jaws are aching too occassionally... What the hell! & when people around me talks about you, i feel so frustrated after what i saw & heard...

Yes, i'd trade cheerleading with my life, trade it with the girl i love, trade it with my studies & trade it with almost everything in this world... But this is not the way man! GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF! Don't blame me for being emotional...

Life's such a bitch at times...

Anyway, some positives today... I've scored 108 points in bowling this afternoon... Lol, yea its an achievement for me (though i know Remy Ong will laugh if he read this)... Its the first time i scored a hundred point & above... Weeeeee!

Listen to this song, this is my song to you! Yeah i meant everything except the fifth line in the chorus... Lol.

JUST SO YOU KNOW

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away
And I dont know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to
Be around you
Theres so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

This emptiness is killin' me
And I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there, just never spoken
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here
Agape,
Ed Angels xoxo

"These Foolish Games Are Tearing Me Apart."

Jurong West Frenzy

2007-12-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

We are still talking, laughing, joking... That's the most painful thing... Why not you just get away as far as possible from me... I wanna hear no more of you... If this continues, there'll be no end... In the end, the hurt will be deeper... I don't want you to join me bleeding at the end of the day... Flesh is smiling, heart is bleeding... That's superficial! That's so fake!

Today's service is great... i love the worship, Alison's voice is soooooooooooooooo sweet... I just teared during worship... 'And i remember how You found me, in that very same place'... OMG, You found me at Jurong West & now i'm back there again... I teared when 'Here in my life' was sung... How amazing hur! Its uber cool!

Anyway, gotta give up a seat to a pregnant lady... sat on the stairs then... Kim was sitting behind me... Hmmm, how good to be a girl, if i'm the girl like Kim, i don't think the usher will ask me to give up...

I have also learnt a lesson... Taking bus service '179' is horrendous... The frequency is so damn slow... I'm suppose to book seats for the CG but in the end, the rest of the members booked already...

After service, had a great time of fellowship with the cell group... Then rushed taxi back to home to prepare for dinner at Harbourfront Centre... There's a chinese restaurant in the midst of the carpark... Food was crappy but Playstation 3 rocks... I'm gonna get one! Haha, Bernard, my cousin got one already & its uber exciting! Lol. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels xoxo

I Should Have Listened To The Elders

2007-12-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

I Should Have Listened To The Elders

I regretted what i did. I felt so screwed up. Sometimes its not the devil, the problem is basically me. I had to change. I regret what i did.

People told me not to, not to go your house, but i ignored and now, i felt so scared. I felt like i'm gonna have another emotional wave coming. No, i don't want but i feel its coming. I don't want to be tied down by you. I have a bright future ahead. Why am i always stuck in this kind of shit. Can i run away from it? No, one day i'm gonna face it.

Why do i get so down when you refused to tell me more about the things that you did? Why did i ask you so much question? Why i felt so painful & confused in my heart for no reason. I'm not ready but why do i feel this way?

Could it be Love? Please, No! No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be... No, it can't be...

No, i can't believe its true! God, tell me this is a lie, tell me i've just woken up from a sweet but impossible dream! I can't continue this way anymore... I hate those emotional days in 2006... Emo, please go away! Why am i always struggling with such stuff?

I must let go of this if not i'm in dipshit for sure... I tried that once before & i hope now it works like the last time... I told myself its not possible at all but now, i can't think of it anymore...

When i die, i know the vultures will all be waiting for my flesh. For now, i'll be just staring at a broken door, where nothing's left here anymore.

Anyway, today meet up with SP Cheer people... The usual people Raymond, Clarence, Genevieve, Candice, WeiPin, Charis & ZhiHao (See, i put WeiPin in between the 2)... Its always FUN with them around... Life's better with them, they are my stress relievers... Lol... Had fun at Carl's Junior Today... Lol...

Wednesday- McDonald's
Thursday- KFC
Friday- MOS Burger
Saturday- Carl's Jr.

These are the fast food joints i went over the past 4 days... Obesity is nearer & nearer! Lol... 4 Burgers, 4 Fries + 8 Cups Of Cokes (Including Today Carl's Jr. 4)... OMG! Diabetes is a stone throw away... Cool!

Anyway i saw my Stats tutor in the shuttle bus to Suntec City today... He asked me to sit with him... Haha, had a very nice chat... Lol, keep asking me questions like where's your girlfriend? where are you going? how much is your allowances a day? & etc... Haha...

I just realised not all lecturers have cars... Lol... After writing the letter of love, i'm gonna sleep & get excited about service tomorrow... Its the start of something new & can you imagine? Its my 2nd year in church & we're moving back to Jurong West where i was saved! Amazing! Dec 4 2005 is my first day... & tomorrow will be my second service in Jurong West... Gonna miss Expo but Jurong West rocks man! Basement 4 auditorium is the last thing i could ever think of... Lol. (:

Agape,
Ed Angels xoxo

"At The End Of The Day, You Ain't Mine."